Tuesday, November 30, 2004
yup yup..Just received the letter from the government that tell me that i'm in the top 25%...
i hate that..cos it just shows that i deproved ! from top 10% down to 25% kinda of displeased...lols...nevermind..at least i've got money to take..haha...
i wana buy a new bag..maybee op's or the roxy or the bong one...gona find one nice one...
i hate PPL who have NO GUTS THAT ONLY TALK BEHIND PPL !!!! u noe hu i referin to...
just teLling ya..i did nothing wrong and got nth to hide...so what? don't always think that ppl OWNS U...and always jealous about others....don't always jugde tat person by the very first mistake..it's not fair to them...they will change..so y not give them a chance??
perhaps u wun understand at all..pointless...
yay i just ordered the konica minota x50...yay..the digital cam is soooo perfect..
ok..gotta go..
she r4inz on..
7:04 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Monday, November 29, 2004
although she did not mention names..i knew that she's talking about me...sometimes i dun even noe what to do... i even being good enuff to apologize to her..but wat did i get in return?? hah...she knew what she wrote down there..pointless...
1:29 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, November 26, 2004
yup...yesterday..we went for the competition [ East Zone Guzheng competition] and the moment we reached Duman High....The people ordered to get changed and prepare to go on stage within the two others schools performing's time...and we'r like totally exhausted after carrying all those extremely heavy instruments and we'r all like a dog panting...
and the worse of all is that when we went up the stage..2 accidents occurred....
first is one of the Guzheng's stand dropped and causing a huge tud on the ground..the other one is due to carelessness and also made a loud noise that everione could be heard...and the impression that we gave other people and to the jugdes were very bad...
and coming to the last part of the song...i can't even hear the what the others playing and the music is getting softer and softer..and the last part was a disaster...after that i sulk my face due to somebody who accused me of something which i dun wana mention...and after i heard xiao ting..my junior said that i did not play wrong infact i'm the best..and i was relieved and can sense abit of happiness..and finally they annouced that SIGLAP SEC ha s got a SILVER award...and i almost cried...it was such a miracle..and we were all so happy hahaha....=))
that's all....
she r4inz on..
8:02 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, November 24, 2004
yup...The Siglap Guzheng is going fer a compeition...?! Based on our standards......guessed we could get a bronze?........ might even not...BUT we gona strive fer our every best!!!!! yeah? ok...don't tok about that any further....
i want to go fer a swim..or a dip in the pool.....i'm craving to go wet and wild...perhaps i'm mad....too long never went fer swim...erm..what else? yup..i hate people who abandoned their pets just like a rubbish and even threw them any o how outside the hdb flats.. where's their hearts?? animals do have lifes...just like human beings....imgaine u'r not throwing away a pet..BUT is a baby..how would others look at u?! and u'r polluting the land..and the air too....HEARTLESS creatures....u dun even deserve to throw or abandon them...*chipocharlie*!!!!!!...............okok..enough......
she r4inz on...
6:12 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Monday, November 22, 2004
Today i 've been bloated since the afternoon....i was so full till i wanted to throw up...
today we'r having a high-tea at the Royal Plaza hotel...and the food doesn't actually meet my expectation as the variety wasn't as much as i first thought....
I hav already give it all up..Believe it?! yup..i did it..we'r frens all along...am i right??
yes..i'm always right..lols..the best choice is only to be confident and believe in yourself rather than being influenced by people and following them blindly...
I've been thinking alot of things during this holidays...and i wanted to start all over again as i can;t give up just because one slight mistake..it isn't fair to me right??
i chose to forget and strive for my very best next year....
[ Results aren't the matter of whether are u a champion or not....but is the process going thorugh that makes u be the no. 1]
all those silly things will be erased from my mind...and i mean it !
hahaha....ok...this friday we will be competing with other schools 4 guzheng...
can u imagine?? the PAST Siglap guzheng was such a disorganize cca that not much people want to raise their heads and even to look at them...but NOW ! it's different...
WE are going 4 competion at Duman High sec sch ! and hope we will win and not to disgrace our sch yeah?! lols...
keep it up !!!!
she r4inz on..
11:47 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
i'm Bored at home...got a feeling of flying out of my golden cage and redeem my freedom..
and these few days i realised what's the meaning of [ some things aren't meant to be seen, but to be felt right in your heart...] truely enough...
is he the one?? or isit true best frens?? lols...felt like giving it all up....but something seem to held me back....i wonder what....feelings?? not i supposed...
w3ll...i dun wana think so much as the answers to the questions are not meant to be found....
she r4inz on..
4:26 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
giVe up?? give up not??
This had been in my mind for a long time..and i couldn't get through it..
some sae give up...some sae give up not....
what should i do? is he the one?? or is he a very very good friend to me??
i don't even know what isit....
The way he express himself gave me another feeling..His eyes.....
i thought he was a guy who flirts with girls and often comment on other prettie girls....
aNd he's got a very deep character...that people had difficulty understanding him...
Despite all these....He's got a very nice character...Humorous...Loyal...lols..
Whatever....i gueess..i had to leave it to.....x___ f.a.t.e___x
a l o n e
c r a v i n g t o b e l o n g t o s o m e o n e.......
6:05 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
Sometimes i think i'm such a fool.....
knowing what is mine and what's notx..still..i continue to make mistakes..
i'm giving it all up! i mean it !
a l o n e
3:35 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, November 12, 2004
i felt so depress and tired all of a sudden..i don't even understand why..
i was so frustrated and fed-up with i do and i see......
sometimes i hate myself....m i so difficult to be understood by my parents??
Why? why must i be the one who always suffer...i hate it !
[pissed offff]
8:44 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
It's simply too bored to stay at home or in school during the holidays..
how i wish i can fly and fly all the way around the world looking at the wonders and beutiful sight of the places..Rather than doing nothing at home...
i'm going on a trip again..and i can put away all those troubles and anjoy as much as i want....
Sometimes..i prefer to be happy than sad when some unfortunate things happens...
[ Look on the Bright side of YOUR life ] i agree totally...Revealing the smile on your face looks exceptionally great !
she r4inz on..
5:16 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
Ever since the day i went to Duman High....it seems that theres no way out....
Its such a torture..it's just the second day..and i could not hold it any longer...
everytime when it ends....it's just like the end of the world..misery......
i hate it..its a torture for me...a terrible torture..im no different from a jailbird..jus that i'm in a school that's all..lols..[=.=]
[u changed my life..] he asked..who was the one who changed my life..and i didn't gave him an answer...he kept asking..and i still gave him an empty answer....
[ a l o n e ]
[ f o r e v e r ] ??
nah...hahs..
6:21 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, November 06, 2004
It's another day...boring day..@ home..i wana fly out..=.=''
Well..later gona have a feast for dinner..at least i can eat again..
i noe what i wana wear for my high tea..wahahahaha..borrow from my sis
Hias..shall i give up?? or give up not??
she r4inz on..
11:09 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, November 05, 2004
Yesterday...we were havin lots of fun...but a pity...we'r no longer in the same class next year..what a pity...
this morning..i was very suprise to see tat msg..what on earth he will send gd nite and morning msg to me..haha..=)...Whatever..
i'm going on a holiday on the 26 of dec...yea!!! and i tink i'll be back on e 31..haha..
and i can shop and eat as much as i like..=)...
omg..i'm so bored at home..
she r4inz on......
8:08 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
What should i do?? my mind is so confused..or isit influenced by some other ppl??
i'm so bored...
9:30 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Monday, November 01, 2004
why isit that the fate of the other people and me is so different??
they didn't do as well as me..and yet i went all the way down down and down to da hell..
Why..isn't it unfair to me..its not that i'm petty..but the truth was rite before my eyes..
i could not accept the fact..perhaps nxt yr..i can do even better den anyone..
[ mood = irritated+ depress] i'm so sad..all my efforts had gone down the drain..isn't it a pity?? i cannot accept other people who is not better but me yet they went to the first/second class..this is terribly unfair towards me..
It's my fate..isn't it? god is so unfair..and is everitime..so unfair..
11:42 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
My heart was swimming In words gathered by the wind.My voice boundedInto a cloud-carried tomorrow.My heart trembledIn the moon-swayed mirror.Soft tears,Spilled with a stream of stars.Isn't it wonderful?If we could walk, hand in hand,I'd want to goTo your town, your home, in your arms.I dream of being Against your chest,My body in your keeping Disappearing into the evening.Words halted by wind are A gentle illusion.A tomorrow torn by clouds isThe voice of a distant place.My heart that had beenIn a moon-blurred mirror that flowed,Those stars that trembled and spilled cannot hide my tears. Isn't it wonderful? If we could walk, hand in hand,I'd want to goTo your town, your home, in your arms.My dream of your face,That I softly touch,Melts in the morning.
lols..
5:21 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i tot it was over..and i decided not to think..but its not..
it's always him to be the one who kept my phone busy? and with craps..
we talk about her..me and him..wat da hell..and he confessed so do i....lols..
i tink i need time..perhaps..its time..and who noes wat is the future like..rite??
well..i just wan to have a peaceful mind..the others?? wait....till da dae i rise my head up...
i'm rotting @ home..i just hope someone can take me out..and play play and play...
Life without fun will be utterly miseraBle..i'm rotting @ home..crave to go out....
[ accept that u can die anytime] isn't it a wonderful phrase?? lols..i'm too bored..and i'm typin nonsense in da blog..whoever sees it...PLS dun faint..haha..
i'm rottin..i'm rottin..i'm rottin..i'm rottin..weeeee...siao cha boh..haha..dun u think i change the way i write in da blog?? hahaha..
bye..rottin gal rotting @ home!
12:34 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
