together on a telephone line but living at the world's opposite ends.

Saturday, April 30, 2005

i tink my blog just lackk of sum dumbo colours eh? so plainn..
yupp..i spend my whole weekends studying..and itss so bored..and yesterday my sista and i were having a ''fashion show'' and i took a number of photos for ourself..it looked quite nice..=P so fun..and imma lousy photographer.. =X

a thousand steps to he4venz yet an inch to death..
am i really close to death?
i an't predict..everything seemed so complicated..
Dying me..not wanting to turn back..
what's life to me?
i don't know..
just follow the beat to that song..

10:04 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, April 29, 2005

yea..i've done someting so great to shoot him down down down to hell!!! cheers!!!

wtf..whenever i speak of this my bloood boils..FARIS SUCKS like HELL!!
ok...this is the first time i scold sumone in my blog till i nid to BOLD his name..okok..this is what happened during recess time ok...i was so worried and stressed up by my geo class test..cos its a long chapter to memorise...and den..everytime the councillors had to sit at 2 tables only..and at the front of the canteen..den eeverytime those siglapians so inconsiderate..those leftovers were on the tables and its so gross to sit there can u imagine? lols..so haikal me fiona sat at a few tables back away from the rest..and that idiot faaris came to us and started ordering us like dogs or slaves to move to the front tables..and actually we wanted to listen to his ORDERS to moved to the front..and just becus we'r rather slow in our actions..he said : i give u 5 seconds..5..4...'' hello? please la..its my butt..i like to sit where i want..its none of ur bussiness k? asshole..and out of my anger..i shoot him off with : can u dun be so demanding? '' and my voice was quite loud..and he argued back..say that whatever shit and i can't be bothered after i diao him i just sit down in the front and studi my geo! wth man..and i guessed a number of councillors heard that i showed attitude to him..haha..
if he dares to complain to that mad woman or the big red flower..i dun mind..anyway i dun feel like being a councillor anymore..why not i shoot him off like hell and i quit myself..

and nowadays..u can see..A4 size paper printed with words like : join the lead..be a part of the student council..voice out ur opinions etc'' ppl..PLEASE open ur eyes big big big..infact zoom in x100..dun ever join the councillors..orelse ur live will be just as low as a dog..a dog ok! my blood boils..=X i gave u one example..yesterday after skull i was at the canteen enjoying my choco chips.. and mr kelvin just order me to climb up the stairs to the detention centre to ask that watever councillor to switch on its walkie talkie..lols..teachers are so bo liao..fancy wasting their time sitting in the canteen to catch bois that went round wifout tugging in their shirts and dragg them for canning..wat a nonsense skull!! and all those nonsense rules. peeps..listen to me..dun EVER JOIN THE STUDENT COUNCIL!! so funnie..i was laffing like mad cos i'm chatting wif that Mr orbiang..cos he didn't noe i was so attitude untill he saw wat i did in the canteen..he even said that he scolded Faris that F word..and the other even whacked him..haha..=X

never be replaced.` ]]

6:52 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

i just find myself living in two different worlds.
skull is always filled with wonderful colours in my life..
however..my closest home..seemed to be the black and white side of my life.
i seemed to pour my troubles here..
but what can i do?

Love a four letter word..
the most simple word in the world yet the most complicated meaning.
Last smile.

7:27 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

thank god..what a silvery day..i'm lurving it.

today's our SYf central judgingon Guzheng Esemble. and we all thought that is our doom..our hell.. cos during the last few practices, we made the instructor damm freak outt.lols. and what we eexpect is gona be sumting like a bronze or either a [ cop ]? god!! its so damm fed up. and we reached there. we saw different types of costumes, and that made the SIGLAP GUZHENG so OUTSTANDING!!! cos our costumes is so unique wif da special colours..its totally in the trend. even intsructors from other skulls asked who's our tailor..all thanks to Michelle workshop..=Pp
after that we proceeded to the practice room. after a few moments..we found ourself up on stage wif da glorious and confident smiles displaying to the audiences as well as the judges.

we started of with the music. it was the most perfect one..indeed it was. after we came down.. we saw mdm poh mr raymond chan etc. and mr Ng as well...im rather surprised that he came..but he left shortly after our performances. i saw mdm poh giving us a thumbs up and we knew it did it quite well.

we were also watching other skulls participating and we thought we'r gona have a bronze or so. BUT we did not!!! Listen up..we Got a SILVER!!!! i was so happy and wats more..siglap's guzheng girls had gott the 3rd best appearances among the JCs and SECs. whoohoos..at least we didn't make ourself malu..hehes..i hope the guzheng can be one of the recognized cca in skull. thank you! clap claps..*

our effort and time had not been a waste..thank god..thanks!!
unfortunately happiness dun laast for me...
i did sumting terrible which i think i would have break his heart..so sorrie. i didn't mean it.. i was too impulsive..=X

7:01 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

well..today = tution day.lols. okok..imma quite happy today. perhaps is becos of my special mood..
okok..hmm..today..during the english tution..we did much of the talking than getting into serious work.. haha..chad jackson and ii were discussing about the low-class and high class vulgarities..
we were saying that cb is a very rough and awful word to use and F is a high class, nicer word to use. wats more..we even talked about the French F word..thats humorous. chad was saying that if i were to use the french F word to greet ppl in the morning and wat will it be like..i was laughing like a lunatic in there. After which, randal came to visit us..haha..and he told us that ''they'' went to the OCH last nite.omg. so scary how could it be. and Chad starting saying that he saw those things before. gosh. that was gross..upon my curiousity i asked him to describle '' the'' appearance. omg! that wasn't much of a nice thing to hear. whats so nice upon looking at those things which wasn't meant to be seen by u? lols. that's humaine.

*if u were to think that i'm the one who betrayed you and leaked out those stuffs. i'm sorry. u got the wrong person. *

yesterday my mum asked me...'' wat the heck u always smsing with your frens? whats so much of it to talk about? i don't see you've got that much of it to communitcate with ur own parents'' upon hearing this. i feel like throwing back some powerful words at her..its not fair. they don't even bother to care about me and try to understand me? and actually expect me to communicate with them?
chad was right. the second one is always the rebellious one. and i'm. don't ever force me to do what i loathe to. i might bring myself to death. and i would if i couldn't take it.

i dislike ppl who lack of originality. always wanting what ppl had. whats so nice to be of the same with people? u'r just lack of standard. and creativity. =S

well..i'm gona get myself either the EMily the Strange wallet / the midnight before christmas wallet! hehes..nd gona get myself a new skull bag too.* laffs. betta. i too impatient. imma goan get somebody outt for a shopping spree...XP

sorrie imma in high high spirit.* duno why. i couldn't explain too. laffs*

lurving u dear. muaacks.

7:12 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, April 22, 2005

what kinda life i'm living in?
its tearing me away..into bits and pieces.
i cried..my tears falls like the rain..but what can i do?
Whats home to me? i don't know..i don't know how to answer it..

once i saw you..i tend to forget everything..
all those sorrows and tears..all gone...
i smile for you
cos i know you will always be somewhere there for me..
and just for me..Only me..nobody else..
i trust you..
my smile meant everything..
my eyes tells the story..

don't think that i'm always what i'm..
i do have my sorrows and fears..
i smile just to cover up the hurt in me..
i'm not what i'm
i lost myself..lost my world..but not your heart..
cos i've already gave you mine....

love you loads..muaccks.

8:03 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, April 21, 2005

they all sucks..suck to the core..i hate them. wat they know is nothing..nothing about mii..they dun noe me at all..what they do is just trash me to hell..they never once did anyting that made mii really happy before..yes, i'm crying now..sobbing infront of my com..i've nobodi to tok to..i dun dare to speak to anybody..i'm so sad..

8:58 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, April 17, 2005

bleahs..bad day..sunday sucks totally..=X i've my tution since 12 this afternoon till evening about 5.30?? lols..its like continuously..Maths..horrible..ok..u can see i'm always talking about maths..cos it really sucks..no wonder ppl often fail maths. lols..*pissed outt*

kekes..he went to work this morning and got to msg him during evening too. hehes..miss him so much..love ya lots. =D

well..hahas..i just told someone to look on the positive side..hehe..lols..Well...honours day nite was simply fantastic..haha..we had alot of funnn..we took alot of retarded photos with yiping fiona xixiang. hahas..we'r simply so crasi..fancy having a snapping fever..and u noe i was rather angry that nobodi watch our performance..typical singaporean onli cares about food..eat all they want la..as i say siglap ppl wun appreciate it. lols..

yea..yesterday i ate a big feast...Abalone, sharkfins, prawns, lobsters, buddda jump over the wall.. ostrich meat..etc. wah piang..eat untill over a thousand dollars..haha..nvm..its my uncle's treat..hehe..and somemore got another 50 bucks..hehes..lols..

lurbing euu.

6:54 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

okok..noe wad? my sister's tution teacher is actually my english tutor. Chad..dotx dots. u owe the class chocolates!!! you ar.. so busybody ar.. anyhow anyhow spread rumours ehh?? wan me die faster isit?? lols.. haha..betta watch outt..=O shit u! my sister almost found out and she said that don't know who go tell chad de... must be either randal or kenneth..=XXX

okok..stress is killing me..!!=X u noe? i actually came in third fer my poa test..lols..wat a miracle.. and i passed my physics..another incredible miracle..lols..SYF's nearing..woohoos..can sumbodi just kill me? haha.

Why am i in all these troubles?
can't i get out of it? i find myself so helpless and useless in these things.
you won't able to understand how i feel, cause the one who are always there for me wasn't you.
i couldn't explain those things. i shan't say it too.
its too hurtful to say out. so i rather keep it all in my heart.
i smile to hide the sorrows in me.

i died.

8:49 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Days after days. i see myself plunged into a deep rally of depression. it showed the dark side of me to others which i didn't tried that before. Its acting like a mirror, reflecting on itself. i hate myself for being this. i loathe it. What was the cause for letting me to be in this state? i keep telling myself just to look up and everything is gona be find. However, down deep in my heart, i could not, i feel like bursting.

[ i sing till i drop dead dead dead] if i could.

i never had a dream come true. till the day that i found euu.

11:26 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Wow. i missed blogging..haha..as usual i changed my skin again..hehes..isn't it nice?? simple. and not infested wif complications. =))

Sunday sucks like hell. ppl's sundays is full of joy and freedom. wat abt mii? a day of tormant..with maths. that pervert held me in there for almost 3 hrs. The lesson is so dry as ever. and he's a block of wood. not like chad. at least he created some humour in the class. hmm..if every sunday is gona be like this.its gona drop mii dead. dead dead. okok..enuff of those miserable stuffs.

i just realised someting..all my pri frens around mii changed..a complete change..which terrifies mii alot..=s well u may tink that ppl do change wif the world...perhaps is i the one that couldn't accept facts.

congrats to choir and malay dance. they've gt silver and gold award. hmm..guzheng is coming up last..wonder wat will we get..=( terrible..stressffull...
this siglap sec sucx...i duno how da hell i used up all my edusave funds..enrichment classes?? does it benefit us?? i dun tink so!!! fancy taking away 100 over bucks just for enrichment programmes..pls la..use ur brain.

hais..nowadays ar..honours day rehersals is just a complete waste of time..wat for we arranged our tinks so nicely and sit down there and do nth? brainless...

hmm..i tink that's all..=))

5:51 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

hais..my bill finally come ler..however..not as much as i expected..$60 lols.i duno how the hell things turned out this way..=,( haha..anyway..its my own will..=))

tests tests..coming up..can u gimmie a break? syf..etc. i'm gona burst..burst burst..i'm afriad that i couldn't hold that long..everything that is infront of me is just testing my patience. i duno where should i head to. what if today i'm fine..tml i'm gona walked away just liddat? who knows..

stress is killing me..i hate it!!!! ok..no point screaming like hell over here.Lols.

[i'm still smiling..just to cover up the hurt thats in me.]

9:40 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

hais..my whole body is aching like hell..=X poor mii..its soo terriblee all the pft's fault..grr!!! i hope i didn't fail haha!!! hmm..nothing much about today..i'm so tired..and drained outt..sigh~ i'm in fer da physics remedial..sucks..kekes..i admit that my physics is not that good la..haha..no choice..=P

Congrats to choir..they got a silver fer their syf..great job..hehes..hmm..i wonder wat will guzheng get for our syf..haha..betta not tink too much..bleahs..its so saddening..today when i was playing the guzheng..i find it verh uncomfortable..den after a while i realised that its becus my long nails are gone and the sound that i played was not as nice as before..i hate it..T_T my poor nails..hiassx so sway..

i wonder where's my hp bill..goodness gracious..its been so long..i'm so terribly afraid that those bills might accumulate and increase..i dunwan!!! =( haiss..

tml..theres honours day rehersal..at the canteen..sucks..why guzheng had to be in the canteen..u noe..its sooo..disgraceful..dun euu know that performing arts are supposed to perform on stage?? its so [bu ya guan] lehh..sumore ar..wee are all gals..we have to shift our instruments frm the 3rd level all the way down to the canteen..excuse mii..u wan my life isit?? wats more..sch is juts so biased..everytime forget abt guzheng..u onli rmbed choir and band's syf's date..how abot guzheng?? SNO?? hais..watever..our skool just duno how to appreciate it..
i'm extremely exhausted..really..drained outt..=((

7:06 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, April 02, 2005

hiees..so tired todayy..cos i wake up at 3am in da morning..and den..we went to choa chu kang..the cemetry..to go pray to my ah gong ah ma. etc. i tot its gona be fun..and i've nv been to a cemetry in the morning..out of curiousity i went..haha..den..its like..so dark?? den on da way there i knocked my head on the car..due to my father's poor driving skills?? haha. wats more? i saw alot of peeps in sucher early morning..and so hazy.

and now..i'm half dead..my eyes hardly open..haha.=D yea!!! congrats to mii man..chad is sick..haha so that means i've no english tution today..woohoos..hahaha..so happie..but den late ron i've maths..nvm..i intend to throw a hell lot of maths question at that teacher..haha.=)) make his life difficult...i so bad.haha..wat else?? My com doesn't have mirco soft..=X i nid it lehh..i nid it for my cme..den now..i duno wat to do.=.= ? pissed off..

yea. SYF coming..woohoos..guzheng peeps..jia you kaes!!! guzheng peeps rawks..whoohoows..haha..

yee..i so heatbroken..my nails T_T...kana cut off..so sad..hais..spot check here spot check there..lols..nails only ma..also mus cutt...my 6 frens..4 kana nails caught, 2 kana hair caught..haha..
wat's this man..haha..

kaes..thats all..buhbyee..=D

luving euu forever..

10:20 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

hias..since when i typed my last entry?? haha..its been a week since i last blogged eh?? hehes..
these few days were so occupied..i've moved into my new house recently..well..nothing muchh..cos i myself don't really tink that theres a nid for us to move us..and wats more is that everynite..i couldn't sleep well..its so terrible to have nitemare everynite ok! wtf..watelse..i got my lips bitten by duno wat hell creature..and it swell like duno wat shit that i cried and yelled till i dunwan to attend sch..but in the end i still went on to skul wif my that abnormal lips..Lols..yesterday in skul..i tot my lips aren't that swollen anymore so i didn't really tink that much la..but den this morning i woke up i wen to look at the mirror..wth?! its swollen!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm kicking a big fuss dere..so ugly..and theres two red marks on my lips..i dun see why my sisters gt any attacks but why mii? idiot..grr! and i dreamt that my hp bill has gone up tp 80+ haha..terrible.

well..yesterday..yiting mii and fiona. went to watch eye 10 after skul..and u noe this fiona ar..screamed at one part of the show..haha..lols..that show is rather comical..laffed like hell when that guy ar used to chopstick to knock his mouth..haha..=D

hais..miissed him loads..his hp kana confiscated ler...so sad...=\

okaaes..thats all for today.

2:06 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.