together on a telephone line but living at the world's opposite ends.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

i've got a new specs..lalala`

yea`` went shopping with my mother today...she bought me quite alot of stuffs..hahas..=P

luckily she didn't went bonkers that day..pheww`` 虽然她没有则怪我..但是我责怪我自己...

this organic materials led me to a big troublee!!! make me so da. . . . . . . . .. . .. . . .

yippee..tis holiday i onli have to go back skull twicEE!!! congrats me!! lalala` i'm so carefree..

next weekk..gona say byebye..goin to take loads of fotos there..woo..i'm lurvingg it..

如果当初没有做出那个决定的话..也许今天的结局会有很大的改变...

也许我只是你生命中的一朵过路的云..

最最最让我痛心的是..每一次..你不从相信我...那是我亲眼亩的....` ] ]

8:17 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

cry me a river..would u?

i'm sick..very sick..it seems that my world is just spinning round and round non-stop..tormant**

it feel as though we lost contact for a decade..

i missed you alot...

i haven't get any chance to chat with you when i'm online..

cos you always not there...

perhaps you are living much in the night..

while i'm in the day..

i haven't told my mum about it..

i really hoped she won't yell at me..

i know i was the one at fault..

i'm willing to pay the price...

but i feared her screams..

it seems that my life is so complicating

manipulating with each other..

cry me a river please..

8:24 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, May 28, 2005

i saw death yesterday...

tired*..yesterday..had a bbq with my whole family and my sis's frens..lols..i was down with a flu and the breeze was simply letting me to have shivers..after i ate those stuffs..i headed into the tent and SLEEP!! wahaha..lols..nothing much about it..

i saw my death yesterday..

when i reached my ah ma hse..we had to packed those stuffs out and bring it home..then, when i was heading for the car to get those stuffs...ontop of me..that duno which bastard threw a cup of noodles down...luckily..it didn't hit me..cos i was one step slower..if i were to walk faster..i might suffer from a lost of memory now...

now den i noe life is so fragile..you can die so easily..yet surviving is hard.

10:13 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, May 27, 2005

stop using your critisms to hurt others feelings..it hurts `

hello? not everyone is as rich as you alright? not everyone has got money to spend like you do everytime u like ok? not everyone gets money during holidays ok?

pls spare a thought for the ones that you are shooting at..i know wat are u driving at..its just a movie..i did say i want to watch..but now..i can't..u get what i meant?? i not as wealthy as you..
you got what most of us don't have..but could you just 　留一点口得 .

不是所有的人都和你一样, 那么的富有, 我知道我不是, 所以我有自知之明, 我才拒绝那一场电影.
我不像你, 那么有钱, 可是, 你有没有想过我的负担其实比你重几十倍, 你不需要为你的家庭做任何事..而我呢? 算了..反正你每次都用那种眼光来看待每一件事情, 听了你那番讽刺的话也不见得很稀奇.

如果你看到了这些话, 心里感到一点 '' 原来我说错了话'' 的心情, 我会有那么一丝一毫的快乐..
那就证明你有人性..你可以生我的气, 但是请你想一想..是谁讽刺谁.

don't always use your own angle to criticise someother people whom u don't understand.
see the big picture rather than your very own one.

8:25 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, May 26, 2005

can sumone just kill me?

i just found out that the feeling to wait for something is terrible..really terrible..how i wished that i did not have any handphone in the first place..so..i won't be living in so much fear..T_T im waiting for my phone bill to arrive..fcuk..i hate this feeling..its tearing me apart..

siglap's soccer won the match and become the champion in singapore..yay!! tingfang lindy and me was screaming like duno wat mad women!! and the three lunatics actually duno what the heck they were kickingg..and we nid that leaf to explain..HAHA..=X

hmm..im so fed up..duno why..T_T mixed emotions..

1:23 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, May 22, 2005

holidays are cumingg..flying for 9 days!!

hias..living in a world without money..isn't it great?? haha wat a joke..if theres such thingy happening in a world..i'm the first to cry out loud!! if i was a rich woman..nananana`

Today i stumbled upon a PINK POKA DOTS PANTS!!!!!!!!!! its so NICE AND STYLE MAN!!
and i tried on it!! it LOOKS PERFECT ONN ME!! guessed what?? my mom dunwan to buy for me!! cry me a river peeps!!! haaahaaa..wtf..i reali love that pants u know..so cool!! haha.. forget it

grrr!!! and den..a broke one was dragged to a japanese restuarant for dinner and cos abt $123.47..and was told to chip in the sum!!! although the food was damm nice la..but when i was eating..my heart ache!! wah lau..so expensive..wtf!!T_T pls cry me the huang he man`

yippe..i will fly for 9 days..to hk and beijing..ahaha..conquer the great wall of china..cos i chi-na woman ma..=p

9:42 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, May 19, 2005

i can't get used to the freedom of my life now.

can you imagine that I cannot adapt to the normal and carefree life?? haha..what a joke..cos i find that everytime i reached home..i simply had nothing much to do..=S want to watch VCD duno where the heck they had gone to..want play the X-box..duno how to open and play liao also keep dying..=X listening to songs..listen and sing..sing untill my throat went sore..=S sms..scared mummy complain..I"ve SIMPLY NOTHING TO DO!!!

hias..this weather is driving me crasyy..that day want go escape..bloody hell..it rained..and we can't play..nevermind..at least it save me from having a big hole in my pocket =P hias..den ar..when we never plan to go out..it NEVER RAIN!! infact the SUN SHINE SO BRIGHT TILL I WANT FAINT ok..

i really wan go swimming
i wan swim si ni~ haha~

i thank god for letting me to pass my POA!! hahas..and thank my part-time dennis..and wu ye for teaching me my poa..haha..i passed my poa` look up to the skies..pigs are flying..wat a miracle..
=D haha..so elated with those results.

thank y god..Muaacks..

7:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

exams are over..haha..i'm so happiesx

wahahahaha..EXAMS ARE OVER...whhoos..so damm shioksxz.

hehes..yesterday went bowling with the other 5..den end up getting said by mua frens that i was cat walking when i bowled. lols..=P i'm such a disgrace..everytime my turn..the bowl will end up in the lokang one leii..so unfair..nvm..cos i'm the first-timer..lols..haha..

kekes..today..i got back most of my results..and should i say they sucks?! haha..although i passed..
but thinking back..they still sucks..cos its wasn't a well done or average..=S
i thank that mrs rajan..haha..i ddin't fail my english paper..infact i could say that i'm quite pleased by my marks..cos..it was marked by her..the strictest of all..yet i survived..woos..haha..imm lurbing it..

okok..now is the G-10 maths..can u imagine whole class fail the maths paper? lol..haha..
infact 1/2 the class is in the G-10 ..not F9 ok..is G-10..i invented it. =D yet i'm so proud to say i failed too..=.='' haha..cos i think i've done my best..lols..fiona so pro..A star liao la..haha..me ar..A moon lols.

hais..waiting for my chinese, geo,ss, f&n..aha..scary..grooss..!!

byebye..i'm so happiesx.

3:47 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, May 16, 2005

peeps..Lookingg for nice and delicious food? go TAKA..wahahaha.`

i'm mad. EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER...whoohoos..yea~ thank god..i love you man..u ended my tormant` hahaha..

kekes..this afternoon..i went outt with that siao yiitinng..and we shopped untill we dropped dead.. and go bankrupt..after eating so muchh stuffs..haha..japan omlette with noodles..takopachi..wat great food to eat..haa..living on earth is not much of a tormant actually..at least i gortt to EAT haha..
my damm fave!! grr..u know?? the most pathetic thing on earth is that..u shop without MONEY!!!
it is worse than hell ok!! haha..that ah gong yiting buy buy buy den i see liao can cry sia..wahahaha~~nvm..i will save and buy that purple angel shirt!! and the mickey shirt too. wait for me..i will come for you de.
=P

tml goin escape..=( i'm bankrupt! hehe.

i lurve to teach..the world to singg~

7:02 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, May 15, 2005

you left me a rose in the rain.
so i swore to the razor that will never enchained. will the dark nails of faith be pushed through my veins again`.

basically..what am i left with to say?? so..that's what i'm always in your eyes right?? you see me as a flirt right? if you were to think of that of me..so sorry..that meant how much of trust you have in me..=( it hurts..i know you are unhappy..what can i do? there's really nothing..

since fate has brought us together and with so much unhappiness..let heaven make the choice to seperate us..i'm still what i'm..and you will be just you..isn't fair?? i'm really speechless.

thanks fiona.muackies.

4:08 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

haha..today tingfang Lindy dennis wuye and i went out to study POA =) and we've so mucch fun..haha..Dennis is such pro teacher..haha..makes my life for poa so much clearer and easier..lols..the 5 of us explore the changi airport and took the skytrainx..wee..and we went to the viewing gallery..to see AEROPLANE wahahaha..so nice..den we end up at burgerkingg..studying poa..and we studied for i think 4 hrs+? haha..break record man..lols..after that Lindy went home..and tf and me and the two guys went to tm to shop..hehe..and we took neoprints..all the act cute ppl..ahhaha..and i bought a bangle..so cool..wahhaha..

i think my life is gona suck all the way later on..cos you noe wat? my aunty saw me..and told my sis that i was with a guy?! lols..if she's gona tell my mother abt it..My life will be a tormant..haha..gona have a big headache explaining all those stuFfs...gosh..i hate it..

why i can't have freedom? lols. why must they be so sensitive? FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you i hate you!!! my family = no family
my family = a barless prison
my family = no freedom

HAHAHA..watever..i lived in my own way as i wanted it to be..=P

7:44 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, May 13, 2005

shattered dreams that would never come true`]]

what the hell have i done?
i knew it..
it hurts for me to hear what you say..
u may not know..

uhlaala..hehehe..monday is my LAST paper..POA..lols..hehes..so happy..and tuesday i'mm goingg escape..and next time would be the wild wild wet..=D wahaha..i can't waitt..
alright..today..im such a good girl..i studied my poa at elias mac..and went off with Lindy to da beach..and we act as lesbians..LOLS we'r too lame..hehe..well..its me that had caused all those conflicts..i hate myself..=(

4:47 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

dudes..i Want to swim..i wana go tann myself again..sickk of being soo fairr..hehes* www... wo lai ye!!! haha..kekes..=) enuff..i'm just too excited

okok..well..today is my MT paper..and guessed what? i almost didn't complete it..omgg..horribllee..*although the paper wasn't very difficult but the passage is longg* grrr..nvm..smile.=d

tml will be my second lastt paper which is home econs..gud luck fer miee..and i cann be free..!!!!

ii thinkk of you~

1:27 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

grr!!! i'm so stressed up!!! i can't study at home..its simply infested with noise!! and i hate it..really...
i can't concentrate well..besides...the urge to getting myself online was just un-controllable.
sigh* i justt can't study..all thanks to my small little brain..can't absorb really much. hahas..=P

well..My right arm is injured i guessed..wtf..i didn't know it was so painful..gosh..=X
May god bless me..bless that with da flying colours. HAHA!!

grr..my sofa finally cum ler..omg..and they send us the wrong cushion!! sigh*

i miss you aloott..

7:24 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, May 07, 2005

just came upon a black metal song..it sounded damm great..its called the Nymphetamine..
imm lurving it..although its abit of gothic kind.haha. and tata young's song is purrfectt man..especially that '' i think of you'' and tat '' seXseh noti bitchy miee!!'' haha..

[ i think of youu]

When I'm down and all alone
When nothing seems to matter
When I lose my hope
When I'm sad and confused
When it all gets turned around and 'round
I can't seem to reach for solid ground
When everything I've believed in seems untrue
All I have to do
[Chorus]
Is think of you
I think of you and it's gone
Like you chase away the storm
Making it all okay
I think of you
I think of you and I'm strong
And I know I can go on
It's like you set me free
When life gets the best of me
I just think of you
Now I know what love means
And whatever life may hold for me
Through the fire
Through the rain I believe
Cause there's nothing I can't bear
Knowing that you will be there
If I fall I won't break
Through it all I'll make it through
Cause all I have to do
[Chorus]
And when I think I'm all alone
I can't see the way to go
Lost in the rain of my own tears
To wash away the pain and fear
[Chorus]
For the good times and the bad times
I just think of you
Cause you know you get the best of me
I just think of you

Nymphetamine

Lead to the riverMidsummer,
I wavedA ‘V’’ of black swans
On with hope to the grave
All through Red September
With skies fire-paved
I begged you appear
Like a thorn for the holy ones
Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain I faced
when you left me A rose in the rain
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again
Bared on your tombI’m a prayer for your lonelinessAnd would you ever soonCome above unto me?For once upon a timeFrom the binds of your lowlinessI could always findThe right slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incisionIn my heart, that barless prisonDiscolours all with tunnel visionSunsetterNymphetamineSick and weak from my conditionThis lust, a vampyric addictionTo her alone in full submissionNone betterNymphetamine
Nymphetamine, nymphetamineNymphetamine girlNymphetamine, nymphetamineMy nymphetamine girl
Wracked with your charmI am circled like preyBack in the forestWhere whispers persuadeMore sugar trailsMore white lady laidThan pillars of salt
Fold to my armsHold their mesmeric swayAnd dance her to the moonAs we did in those golden days
Christening starsI remember the wayWe were needle and spoonMislaid in the burning hay
Bared on your tombI’m a prayer for your lonelinessAnd would you ever soonCome above unto me?For once upon a timeFrom the binds of your lowlinessI could always findThe right slot for your sacred key
Six feet deep is the incisionIn my heart, that barless prisonDiscolours all with tunnel visionSunsetterNymphetamineSick and weak from my conditionThis lust, a vampyric addictionTo her alone in full submissionNone betterNymphetamine
SunsetterNymphetamine (Nymphetamine)None betterNymphetamine
Nymphetamine, nymphetamineNymphetamine girlNymphetamine, nymphetamineMy nymphetamine girl

10:06 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

you've been thinking what is wrong between us..
you always think that it is your fault..
you didn't give me a chance to explain..
did you? or not?

i wanted to explain somethings.
since then..what had already done is done..
pointless after all..

我不知道原来我们的爱是那么脆弱。。。

我要找回我失去的美好。。

我好不容易找到了他。。我也不会就因为这样而放弃这段感情。

相信
信任

1:15 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, May 06, 2005

what the..u know what?? our english papers are going to be marked by that blacky rajan..oh gosh..i think i will flung like hell this time..lols..=X ehem..look on the bright side ** no sun..too bad..gagas..
damm worried..although i know what i wrote wasn't outt of the point..but but..is mrs rajan u get it?? she's gona pull everyone down to hell with her man..hai yoo** groann..hahas..

great..i don't have the sense of examination's feeling man..=P hahas..watever..
ehem..the bloody skull made me pay $ 121 leh..wah piang..stupidd lehh..watever stupid enrichment courses..does it benefit us?? i dun tink soo..waste so much $ and time on this kinda useless thingy..=XX go with da hell la.

3:46 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

woots...u know at this point off timee..95% of the students would be studying noww..and i'm the only 5% that would be blogging and singing karaoke!!! hahaha..=P u know i've moved to my new house for months and my sofa had not arriveed yett!! lolss..XD

recently..i've just bought a poka dotties pouch..* woots..so nicee..imma lurvingg those colours...yipee..wahahas..may i paass all my donneky examinations!!! wahahahahaha...

100% lunatic..BEWARE

5:22 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.