together on a telephone line but living at the world's opposite ends.

Saturday, July 23, 2005

just now i had a heart to heart talk with maii sis. and we both realised something. [ isit for a moment of passion? or just something else] she told me that if she was given another chance, she still would choose him. But, i told her my views, and she didn't agree. and she revealed a big secret in her which she had kept it for 1 year. I wonder why she could hide herself away so easily and i just couldn't. she found out mine long ago. smart`` i sorted out loads of stuffs today, and i came to an answer. But thats not the real answer, cause that's the answer that u'r looking for, not naturally from your heart. i rmb once, that person told me that fate is something we can control, not controlled by others. and i finally understood why. last time i hate to regret, and i don't feel like regretting, cause that gives me a guilt and a feel that im the one who is wrong. But now, im really regretting, i lost a chance which i never cherish, and i now know why i lost so many and finally i came to realise how much it means. If i were to think properly, perhaps things weren't like now. Sometimes, its a moment of sillyness that cause everything to its end. and thats the turning point in our lifes occurs.

3:02 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.