Tuesday, August 30, 2005
sigh` today is such a bad day. dunno what the hell is going on everyday. just find myself sucking to the core. i look around me.i dont think theres anybody there for me to confine with. i felt very troubled. yet cant put them into words. whiee?! i also duno why. so dont ask me why. and why and why.
during p.e lessons. everybody is caught in the rain. becos lindy say i sang the song :" let the rain fall down" and it rained. my whole body is simply wet from bottom to the top. and my hair is just like a bird nest. headache. shivering under the void deck. everybody end up drenched and fancy hanging their attire and socks everywhere. the sight was awful but i did it too. cos my shoes and socks are so wet as though it had been soaked in water.
hainns. went to make my ic. and passport. and i changed my name. same tone but different writing so idiot.-if next time i wana change backk i nid to hirer a lawyer. lol and went to bugis agn`. so sian. everyday also bugis. and i bought yp's EARLY burthday present. heehee. cried in the kfc today. cos maii mum said some thing to me that makes me feel so miserable. she cried and i cried too. whatever.
thinking` no more. -
7:47 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
during p.e lessons. everybody is caught in the rain. becos lindy say i sang the song :" let the rain fall down" and it rained. my whole body is simply wet from bottom to the top. and my hair is just like a bird nest. headache. shivering under the void deck. everybody end up drenched and fancy hanging their attire and socks everywhere. the sight was awful but i did it too. cos my shoes and socks are so wet as though it had been soaked in water.
hainns. went to make my ic. and passport. and i changed my name. same tone but different writing so idiot.-if next time i wana change backk i nid to hirer a lawyer. lol and went to bugis agn`. so sian. everyday also bugis. and i bought yp's EARLY burthday present. heehee. cried in the kfc today. cos maii mum said some thing to me that makes me feel so miserable. she cried and i cried too. whatever.
thinking` no more. -
7:47 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i pulled a very long face to skull in the morning just like a cucumber. im terribly miserable. so i sulk all the way untill i met xixiang the funny girl who always makes me laugh.
its teachers day today. and early in the morning we went for a 2km walk. and i dragged lindy with me. so idiotic. afterwhich. we watch a concert. pathetic. boringg- yupp.
we went to the pizza hut. and it says after 1.30. so we cant wait and we went to delifrance instead. cos szeli suggested it. i eat until my heart very pain. so expensive. but i still prefer pizza hut.
if one day what the unexpected turns out to be something which i expected. i will be very disappointing and sad. its true. although i didnt say it out. x(
4:21 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
its teachers day today. and early in the morning we went for a 2km walk. and i dragged lindy with me. so idiotic. afterwhich. we watch a concert. pathetic. boringg- yupp.
we went to the pizza hut. and it says after 1.30. so we cant wait and we went to delifrance instead. cos szeli suggested it. i eat until my heart very pain. so expensive. but i still prefer pizza hut.
if one day what the unexpected turns out to be something which i expected. i will be very disappointing and sad. its true. although i didnt say it out. x(
4:21 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
what the hell is this. ppl blaming us . hello.? isit our fault? pls la. i dont even wana give a f-ing damm on u loh. theres so much for me to dig out if i wana tok about u okay. ap.
pissed off` get the hell damm off of my sight.
whatever la. my fault la. this is very irritating. fakers-
9:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
pissed off` get the hell damm off of my sight.
whatever la. my fault la. this is very irritating. fakers-
9:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, August 28, 2005
woahs. such a tiring weekend. heh heh. tf and i flipped the whole bugis upside down. wakakas. and i bought another color color beaddys necklace. so hawaii stylee. heh heh xP. also bought two flowery flowery hawaii clipss hahas. sp funn. and i ate alot of stuffs. godd. i spend so much money` x( nvm im awaiting for the next trip. heheh
8:02 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
8:02 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Friday, August 26, 2005
yupp- didnt blog yesterday. so im gona recollect everything and write it here- im so touched. my buddies purposely bought me a small lil xiao xing cake when i was having my lunch`. godd. im so happy. afterwards, i went on to my remedial and after that, i came backk, randal and weiyuan bought me a round fruit cake. and they sang me burthday song` i cried. so touched. really glad to have such nice friends around me. but i didnt got the chance to blow all the candles cos of the fan that helps me do the jobb. yeahs. after which everybody was having a gre8 time playing with the cakes and they smeared the cream onto my face- haha. leeming and xian li was also fighting with the cream and they got themselves in a face-of-cream state. hehes. never forget the presents from daryl, kenneth and claytoon`. thanks loads. lovee that big head pooh` hahas. of course i never forget my darling 230805. thanks.yarr after that i went home with clay, ken and randal of course my fio too. heh heh. okis. actually quite sad lar, cos my parents don't quite rmb that yesterday's was my birthday. anyway, i got my crasii bunch of friends, so i dont bother anymore. xP
im so tired now. cos today theres debate and after which i go watch bb match. xP so exciting to stand beside the tf. ahah. got sexy voicee somemoree. hehe. anyway. im very sleepy noww`
THANKS LOADS PEEPS`-
11:26 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
im so tired now. cos today theres debate and after which i go watch bb match. xP so exciting to stand beside the tf. ahah. got sexy voicee somemoree. hehe. anyway. im very sleepy noww`
THANKS LOADS PEEPS`-
11:26 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
woahs. im so bored and freezing cold in the com lab. boring`.everybodyies is doin their own chi blog except me!!! so siann`
xP
10:52 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
xP
10:52 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
so irritating uh. freaks. im gona give up everything noww. no bothers, no sadness- such a peacefull live i will havee. congrats me- whatever ru-shit-di. or whatever. duno how to spell. v gross, ever since lindy told me what happen. omg. freakos. ok. just got damm pissed off today. just because that damm * about studies. and uve got me so irritated// just that stupid one two three ryte?
alryte. u know. ive been avoiding* cos i think ppl are just so ****. cant stand them- just like u didnt do what u say and pretend as though nth happened. wth?! whatever. i dun giv it a damm.-
interclass soccer.
my face, almost gone today- wakaka. luckily that freaking ball never hit maii face, if not, i will cry like mad. wakaka. it only brush through my shoulder part. hee hee. after that, i used my file to protect my face. hehe. so typical aunty typee- dunno whether maii class gort win or not xP
anyway, i soooo sad today, cos i cant WATCH SUPERSTAR LIVE. wtf. becus i nid to studyy for the ss CT and maths class test` so disappointed.-
never had my dinner. cos no appeittie. cos i already QI BAO LE. x(!!!!!
10:15 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
alryte. u know. ive been avoiding* cos i think ppl are just so ****. cant stand them- just like u didnt do what u say and pretend as though nth happened. wth?! whatever. i dun giv it a damm.-
interclass soccer.
my face, almost gone today- wakaka. luckily that freaking ball never hit maii face, if not, i will cry like mad. wakaka. it only brush through my shoulder part. hee hee. after that, i used my file to protect my face. hehe. so typical aunty typee- dunno whether maii class gort win or not xP
anyway, i soooo sad today, cos i cant WATCH SUPERSTAR LIVE. wtf. becus i nid to studyy for the ss CT and maths class test` so disappointed.-
never had my dinner. cos no appeittie. cos i already QI BAO LE. x(!!!!!
10:15 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Monday, August 22, 2005
hainns. v boringg`. came home at 4 and fell alsp on that sofa untill 6. so tired. filled with dissapointment today. sigh- physics just sucks. despite studying for so hard. whatever. x(
i tink my eyes also got problems. it always itch for nothing and it gets me very uncomfortable.
yay!!! im left with maths graph test and ss test and i can play- wakakaka. m so happy now. like the way im. dun have to bother so muchh cos as i say. in the process of................. okis im mad. lala.
gona do something different during sept hols. wooots. xP
10:19 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i tink my eyes also got problems. it always itch for nothing and it gets me very uncomfortable.
yay!!! im left with maths graph test and ss test and i can play- wakakaka. m so happy now. like the way im. dun have to bother so muchh cos as i say. in the process of................. okis im mad. lala.
gona do something different during sept hols. wooots. xP
10:19 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, August 20, 2005
its all a lie.
a faded illusion
im barely hanging on-
forbidden destiny
sometimes, i really hope that time could travel back.
so that if one makes a mistake he/ she can make corrections
unlike now. if one wished to get back his/her everything, its too late.
they always say, its never too late, because they themselves don't know how much pain we had endured.
Theres a time when that i see, in the way you looked at me
theres a smile, theres a truth, in your eyes
what an unexpected way, on this unexpected day
could it be, this is where i belong
it is you i have loved all along..
there's no more mystery, it is finally cleared to me,
your the home my heart searched for, so long
\\-it is you i have loved all along-//
5:40 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
a faded illusion
im barely hanging on-
forbidden destiny
sometimes, i really hope that time could travel back.
so that if one makes a mistake he/ she can make corrections
unlike now. if one wished to get back his/her everything, its too late.
they always say, its never too late, because they themselves don't know how much pain we had endured.
Theres a time when that i see, in the way you looked at me
theres a smile, theres a truth, in your eyes
what an unexpected way, on this unexpected day
could it be, this is where i belong
it is you i have loved all along..
there's no more mystery, it is finally cleared to me,
your the home my heart searched for, so long
\\-it is you i have loved all along-//
5:40 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Friday, August 19, 2005
u know? its all craps. How could junyang lose to that blind man?! i just don't understand why. its so sad. cos i support him all along. den he got kicked out. i cried on thursday night and was so angry. JUNYANG is so good in everything. how sad ar. nvm. eventually he will release his album one day. he can make it. ppl. PLEASE SUPPORT KELLY POON!!!!
sigh- geo CT on monday. just got my f&n test on friday.and i thought that i would fall flat on the ground because that night i was watching that supersrar thingy [ and junyang got out ] so sad. yeahs. i did only abit of studying. phew` i really know how to do the test. except for some qns. x)
wakakas. physco-ing maii mom to get a new com for me. heh heh. i even brought the flyer home. yesterday, i was at my ah ma hse. playing maple. and im so gong inside. ppl press one time and the monster died. and me?! i press soo many donket times and that green monster didnt die and in the end i died. clayton ask me not to be so gong can a not? lols. i also duno wth is that. nvm . at least every fri i get to play. wakaka.
did that dentention duty with fiona. and i wasn't in charge - lucky me. and i roamed around the skull like a ghost. and came back to sit down on the bench and crapp with clement and gang. its real funny. on the way home. van was so funny. her fone somehow spoilt? and she went : hello ? hello? and knock her fone for a few times and repeat that action agn. i was laffing like mad on the bus. heh heh.
yay!! nth's bothering me anymore. cos i myself cant be bothered with anything. x)
12:18 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
sigh- geo CT on monday. just got my f&n test on friday.and i thought that i would fall flat on the ground because that night i was watching that supersrar thingy [ and junyang got out ] so sad. yeahs. i did only abit of studying. phew` i really know how to do the test. except for some qns. x)
wakakas. physco-ing maii mom to get a new com for me. heh heh. i even brought the flyer home. yesterday, i was at my ah ma hse. playing maple. and im so gong inside. ppl press one time and the monster died. and me?! i press soo many donket times and that green monster didnt die and in the end i died. clayton ask me not to be so gong can a not? lols. i also duno wth is that. nvm . at least every fri i get to play. wakaka.
did that dentention duty with fiona. and i wasn't in charge - lucky me. and i roamed around the skull like a ghost. and came back to sit down on the bench and crapp with clement and gang. its real funny. on the way home. van was so funny. her fone somehow spoilt? and she went : hello ? hello? and knock her fone for a few times and repeat that action agn. i was laffing like mad on the bus. heh heh.
yay!! nth's bothering me anymore. cos i myself cant be bothered with anything. x)
12:18 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
yeahs. hmm. dead completely now. i had a terrible nightmare yesterday, so freakout and i was like cannot move at all, on my bed. the feeling is terrible. and i was lying on the bed slunting. and my whole body ached like hell cos yesterday it cramped all up. now i had difficulties walking properly.x(
today. nth much la. as usual. after skull. chiong home for tution. chad thought im suffering from depression cos i didnt smile at all. and he thought i broke up wid my bf. LOLS yupp. after that we were telling about ghosts stories and they made me damm freak out. and they are so true. wth.
yeahs. now crapping with philip saying that whose backside most style hahas. he claims that is his. wakakas. x) hainns.
forced smile.
do visit loveus-hateus. x)
10:29 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
today. nth much la. as usual. after skull. chiong home for tution. chad thought im suffering from depression cos i didnt smile at all. and he thought i broke up wid my bf. LOLS yupp. after that we were telling about ghosts stories and they made me damm freak out. and they are so true. wth.
yeahs. now crapping with philip saying that whose backside most style hahas. he claims that is his. wakakas. x) hainns.
forced smile.
do visit loveus-hateus. x)
10:29 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
x( so tired today- after school, i dashed to the general office to take the dentention file and keys. and those bloody STUDENTS simply doesn't know how to wait. they bug at me like a stupid housefly just to write their name on the paper. wtf. and this butch of idiots was so robust that i yelled at them. haha. and finally theres peace. those ppl are so irriating. they think that threatening me does make me fear of them. haha. well` im not. cos im prepared to get sacked anyway. today im so stress and freak out by them` when mrs q spoke to me. i was like totally blurt out everything. i told her how idiotic is the freaking detention file. i told her how freaking is the students behaving in the cage. phew. luckily its only for a moment. after which randal and claytonn came. and i became the radio of the day agn. singing songs to them and that claytoon always makes me giggle and i was like singing to the chorus part. i came out with a laugh. cant stand it. anyway its very funny-
after all these stuffs. i went to guzheng. and i LOST MY FILE AND NAILS. x( cant read the notes so i rely everything on my memory. luckily i used to sing the whole guzheng song out so i can play like normal heh heh . and i almost fell to the ground. cos i was rocking my chair and half turning back to tok to yt. and she just say that - was downstairs and i almost lose my grip and fall, that stupid action of mine let tf and yt had a great time laughing at me. x) after that. the 4 act cools went homee. bleahs. somehow heard something and i was like wanting to ask but not dare too. x(
september- theres a performance outside skull. yeek.
where are yoo?!
10:46 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
after all these stuffs. i went to guzheng. and i LOST MY FILE AND NAILS. x( cant read the notes so i rely everything on my memory. luckily i used to sing the whole guzheng song out so i can play like normal heh heh . and i almost fell to the ground. cos i was rocking my chair and half turning back to tok to yt. and she just say that - was downstairs and i almost lose my grip and fall, that stupid action of mine let tf and yt had a great time laughing at me. x) after that. the 4 act cools went homee. bleahs. somehow heard something and i was like wanting to ask but not dare too. x(
september- theres a performance outside skull. yeek.
where are yoo?!
10:46 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Monday, August 15, 2005
alright. today i wore my new specs agn. cos i cant really read the words on that projector. and fio says it looks very lady like. xp. sigh` all my efforts had gone down into the longkang. wth. u know? i studied so hard during the weekends to study my sciences. and den. u know what, the chem paper is just like a paper printed with some french or hindu words. whatever acids and bases all elephant shit, what formulaes or whatever so alien-ised. the whole class doesnt know what and how to do. so i looked at ying, she gave me that : mati-for -sure looked and the more i do the more irritated i got and i almost tear up my paper. and its true. i always feel like tearing up maths paper. now its chem paper. wth. tatas. physics is also a lil bit of unfamilar to me but is slightly better den chem. yay. i tink im down for both of the remedials and thats FOR SURE. x(!!!
after that hell CT, fio and i went for some meeting which is very ridiculous which doesnt involve us. however, we had to bear that 2 hrs there listening to the day like walking zombie's talk. and it drag untill 5.30. x(. yupp. when to mac to eat chocolate ice cream. yum yum. and bought a pair of earings to suit the mine cos the other drops into the hole of the sink =x.
yuks. im dead. for sure. wooots.
11:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
after that hell CT, fio and i went for some meeting which is very ridiculous which doesnt involve us. however, we had to bear that 2 hrs there listening to the day like walking zombie's talk. and it drag untill 5.30. x(. yupp. when to mac to eat chocolate ice cream. yum yum. and bought a pair of earings to suit the mine cos the other drops into the hole of the sink =x.
yuks. im dead. for sure. wooots.
11:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
shrucks. having CT tml. so nervous. cos mrs yoong didn't teach us that topic. gona fail my chemistry. yeahs. completed my physics. woahs. damm tiring. luckily gort ppl pei me nort entertain. hahas. yeahs, thanks ar. x) well` this morning i woke up late and went to bedok for breakfast. and i thought i can go watch fireworks. too bad xPp. nobody dates me. HAHA. whatever` yepp// im so free yesterday that i painted my toenails barbie pink. haha. and i paint my nails with transparent glitters and 5 hearts stuck onto my thumb nail.what a vain girl huh`- anyway i'd like it to be black. hahas. gona change that barbiely pink into BLACK woahs. gothic eh. hahas. bored. really bored.
u know. my family is crasy. kip watching the korean drama shows. [ stairway to heaven ] but its very sad . i watch a few of them and i cried like hell, so i stopped watching it. haha.
theres this guy. dunno who. calls himself max. he gave me his hp number.?! lols. craziie. anyway. i duno who the hell is this guy-
maple lvl 8- thank you claytoonn`
omg. yiping told me something very horrible.- x((((
[ its gud to be a b.i.t.c.h , an innocent one- ] woots.
9:34 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
u know. my family is crasy. kip watching the korean drama shows. [ stairway to heaven ] but its very sad . i watch a few of them and i cried like hell, so i stopped watching it. haha.
theres this guy. dunno who. calls himself max. he gave me his hp number.?! lols. craziie. anyway. i duno who the hell is this guy-
maple lvl 8- thank you claytoonn`
omg. yiping told me something very horrible.- x((((
[ its gud to be a b.i.t.c.h , an innocent one- ] woots.
9:34 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
currently figuring out how to play maple. and this thingy is driving me very very mad. cause I STILL DUNO HOW TO PLAY. x( nvm` studies more important. [ thats the only way i console myself from being a number 1 com idiot ]
had a dream yesterday, i dreamt that my auntie helped me make up. and she draw my eye untill so black and as if my eyes very big haha. den ar i was wearing red contact lenses. lols. what stupid dream den my mom scold me cos she say i very ugly x( haha. after that i dreamt that i was in this place ar. den everybody was forced to eat that fruit that will shrink ourselves. then, i was hiding here and there, in the end kana caught. and i finally woke up.and my tooth hurts. maybei was so engross
today. im such a good girl. staying at home studying my sciences- like mad. figuring how to balance equations and u know smth, that mrs yoong didnt teach us acids and bases at all. and we'r having our CT on monday. i doubt i won't pass. lol. physics? still managable.
PPL PLEASE SUPPORT JUNYANG AND KELLY` JUNYANG'S SO GOOD IN EVERYTHING!!!
i know im mad. haha. crasy over JUNYANG, cant help it la. he's so HANDSOME`
i'll think of you. its true. sometimes things arent meant to say out cos i tot u know.
1:16 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
had a dream yesterday, i dreamt that my auntie helped me make up. and she draw my eye untill so black and as if my eyes very big haha. den ar i was wearing red contact lenses. lols. what stupid dream den my mom scold me cos she say i very ugly x( haha. after that i dreamt that i was in this place ar. den everybody was forced to eat that fruit that will shrink ourselves. then, i was hiding here and there, in the end kana caught. and i finally woke up.and my tooth hurts. maybei was so engross
today. im such a good girl. staying at home studying my sciences- like mad. figuring how to balance equations and u know smth, that mrs yoong didnt teach us acids and bases at all. and we'r having our CT on monday. i doubt i won't pass. lol. physics? still managable.
PPL PLEASE SUPPORT JUNYANG AND KELLY` JUNYANG'S SO GOOD IN EVERYTHING!!!
i know im mad. haha. crasy over JUNYANG, cant help it la. he's so HANDSOME`
i'll think of you. its true. sometimes things arent meant to say out cos i tot u know.
1:16 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, August 13, 2005
currently suffering from brain cancer or tumor. or some last stage illness.my head hurts. so giddy. sigh` tf aint no better, she sms me in the evening telling me that she's very weak and vomitting also nobodies at her hse. i was so worried and i wanted to go her place, luckily her mum came back. everyone is under depression. x(
feel as thou` im so cheap. faking smile and whatever faking nice attitude to people.
everytime i saw the backview of ur's. things kept my mind all occupied. entirely. i say it all out today. to lindy and i nearly drop tears, luckily i managed to cover it with my stupid smile agn- nobody knows anyway.
i baked the chicken pie today, NO MUSHROOMS, ms song forgot it all. nvm. well as usual i split it among e peeps la. too blend anway. after the rolling of so many dough and got myself in a mess with flour, i started to feel so tired and sleepy. maybe im too hyper at first. lols.and i was called the CAVE-MAN` just because i duno where's the main to the stove.
everywhere i go, theres a slight glimpse of this image. thou im looking forward to see it, yet thinking back, im stupid.
alright- the com idiot heres wants to play maple. yet she don't know how the hell to sign up. and actually this idiot here DL before this maple and yet, still don't know how to play, so she delete it off from her com. and now, trying to re-DL agn` wth- idiots of idiots-. currently waiting for Mr CLAYTOON to cycle home and help me with it. 10.24pm. still not back. ppl like kenneth already reached home long ago. xD anyway, that mushroom looks kinda of cute. like mario game. i like. can step on mushrooms.`x)
im so SLEEPY` i dunwan be panda.
anyway- i suck.
lalala. act happy = what i do. lols.
[[ never be the same agn
12:35 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
feel as thou` im so cheap. faking smile and whatever faking nice attitude to people.
everytime i saw the backview of ur's. things kept my mind all occupied. entirely. i say it all out today. to lindy and i nearly drop tears, luckily i managed to cover it with my stupid smile agn- nobody knows anyway.
i baked the chicken pie today, NO MUSHROOMS, ms song forgot it all. nvm. well as usual i split it among e peeps la. too blend anway. after the rolling of so many dough and got myself in a mess with flour, i started to feel so tired and sleepy. maybe im too hyper at first. lols.and i was called the CAVE-MAN` just because i duno where's the main to the stove.
everywhere i go, theres a slight glimpse of this image. thou im looking forward to see it, yet thinking back, im stupid.
alright- the com idiot heres wants to play maple. yet she don't know how the hell to sign up. and actually this idiot here DL before this maple and yet, still don't know how to play, so she delete it off from her com. and now, trying to re-DL agn` wth- idiots of idiots-. currently waiting for Mr CLAYTOON to cycle home and help me with it. 10.24pm. still not back. ppl like kenneth already reached home long ago. xD anyway, that mushroom looks kinda of cute. like mario game. i like. can step on mushrooms.`x)
im so SLEEPY` i dunwan be panda.
anyway- i suck.
lalala. act happy = what i do. lols.
[[ never be the same agn
12:35 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Friday, August 12, 2005
yucky yuk` maple- so lac. omg. want to vomit blood. sigh` my mum change the idea of getting a new com for me. cause yesterday im kicking a big fuss of this idiotic stupid retarded com of mine. u know. i once had a thought of using a hammer to break the screen.lol. must physco her agn`.x(
anyway` thanks kenneth-
i was so irritated. i don't know why. fuck off man. wth. my head seemed so important, my mouth is SO important as well.
bitches- 2 of a kind.
flirtious-2 of a kind
what the heck? get lost lar.
5:05 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
anyway` thanks kenneth-
i was so irritated. i don't know why. fuck off man. wth. my head seemed so important, my mouth is SO important as well.
bitches- 2 of a kind.
flirtious-2 of a kind
what the heck? get lost lar.
5:05 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Thursday, August 11, 2005
torn and tattered soul of mine-
everything feels so wrong, so extreme wrong
being octrazied is me
feeling so left out is me
so lonely is me
so sad, its still me
when ppl are irriated and angry, they A me. and its me agn
can you spare a thought for me? u know- it hurts.
it just feel like people thrash me down. which i detest alot alot.
my friends isnt there for me-
im all alone to face all these..
i cant cope anymore-
x(
if i'd have a choice. i rather i die.
11:13 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
everything feels so wrong, so extreme wrong
being octrazied is me
feeling so left out is me
so lonely is me
so sad, its still me
when ppl are irriated and angry, they A me. and its me agn
can you spare a thought for me? u know- it hurts.
it just feel like people thrash me down. which i detest alot alot.
my friends isnt there for me-
im all alone to face all these..
i cant cope anymore-
x(
if i'd have a choice. i rather i die.
11:13 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
a very nice 4 leaf clover- x) i like it so much.
it is you i have loved- muahs. v. sad song. really nice. like it loads. x)
There is something that I see
In the way you look at me
There’s a smile, there’s a truth
In your eyes
What an unexpected way
On this unexpected day
Could it be this is where I belong
It is you I have loved all along
There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You’re the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved all along
There were times I ran to hide
Afraid to show the other side
Alone in the night without you
But now I know just who you are
And I know you hold my heart
Finally this is where I belong
And it is you I have loved all along
And no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You’re the home my heart searched for so long
It is you I have loved all along
Over and over I’m filled with emotion
Your love, it rushes through my veins
And I am filled with the sweetest devotion
As I look into your perfect face
There's no more mystery, it is finally clear to me
You’re the home my heart searched for so long
And it is you I have loved
It is you I have loved
It is you I have loved all along
-Dana glover.
1:15 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
went to watch the fireworks beside the AIA building` v. nice. i was just standing so close to it and i don't know untill the bomb sound came out and we got a shock. v. beautiful` indeed. after a few minutes we thought it ended so we headed back budden it strike agn. and we the whole load of people standing in the middle stretch of the road to see the beautiful golden dust flittering in the night skies. so wonderful.- i ate 3 ice creams today for a moment of anger.
yeahs i wearing the four leaves clover necklace that my mum bought me. so nice. hehes. nvm. it symbolises good luck anyway. ppl like me are always that unfortunate so i need a blessing. wth?!
whatever.
10:53 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
yeahs i wearing the four leaves clover necklace that my mum bought me. so nice. hehes. nvm. it symbolises good luck anyway. ppl like me are always that unfortunate so i need a blessing. wth?!
whatever.
10:53 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
yesterday's me. at home. too bored. and self obsessed.
im sorry, don't ask me why, cos i won't know how to answer all your questions. i would only say i don't know. sorry. i know. cause though feelings still lingers. and i can't do anything. i will move on. i won't think about it anymore. u know? when u ask me all. i feel so sad. so don't ask me anything.
sigh` gona drag to the interchange to watch the fireworks. hello? can i imagine something? haha./ whatever.
[ [ nobody could bring the smile back. ] ] including you`-
6:35 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
went to watch the fireworks beside the AIA building` v. nice. i was just standing so close to it and i don't know untill the bomb sound came out and we got a shock. v. beautiful` indeed. after a few minutes we thought it ended so we headed back budden it strike agn. and we the whole load of people standing in the middle stretch of the road to see the beautiful golden dust flittering in the night skies. so wonderful.- i ate 3 ice creams today for a moment of anger.
yeahs i wearing the four leaves clover necklace that my mum bought me. so nice. hehes. nvm. it symbolises good luck anyway. ppl like me are always that unfortunate so i need a blessing. wth?!
whatever.
10:53 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
yeahs i wearing the four leaves clover necklace that my mum bought me. so nice. hehes. nvm. it symbolises good luck anyway. ppl like me are always that unfortunate so i need a blessing. wth?!
whatever.
10:53 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
yeahs. back at home finally. so tired. morning, i met yiting at the bus stop and we walked and run and chase for bus. and we reached the stadium to meet up with the rest. i screamed for people in my class especially ayu and people whom i don't know. i just scream on top of my lungs like mad. it seemed that i doesn't care about my own reputation or smth` i looked stupid, i know. after the whole thingy, we went straight home. and got pestered by some of the chinese guys la. quickly i hurried myself into the bathroom and out i go again. to meet tingfang.
i can't believe this u know that? i went up the bus and i tapped my card and i was stunned. first i saw, wuye's hair and i recognised that its him, den i saw li chuan, followed by maii hao jie mei. after that i know im gona see him so i quicky sit down like stupid doll so clumsy. and my face turned into a very weird expression. without hesitation i just dialled tf's no. and call for help. im so suay, cos i didn't wear my clover necklace. hahas.whatever. yeahs. when we reached the interchange, i walked so damm fast to meet up with tf and i spot her den we walked like robots to hunt for lunch.
havin my day quite disturbed even when im eating. ppl kip smiling to me. hahas. thats my didi, cant blame lar. yeahs. went on to stroll around the area cos we'r bored with bugis and orchard so we decided not to go far, and we went to watch : THE ISLAND u know, this show is fantastic. with great endings. haha..i like i like` perrrfect show. so exciting, but sad to say, most of my friends don't appreciate action type movies. hahas.yeahs. and the show was great la.
it ended at about 7.45? and our legs hurts so much that tf can't walk properly and i was like limping away. ahhaha.anyway, i really had a fun time today. cos i did alot alot of imaginations.
sigh` whats wrong with me.
depression time.
give me back my fantasy
my torn and tattered soul`x(
12:18 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i can't believe this u know that? i went up the bus and i tapped my card and i was stunned. first i saw, wuye's hair and i recognised that its him, den i saw li chuan, followed by maii hao jie mei. after that i know im gona see him so i quicky sit down like stupid doll so clumsy. and my face turned into a very weird expression. without hesitation i just dialled tf's no. and call for help. im so suay, cos i didn't wear my clover necklace. hahas.whatever. yeahs. when we reached the interchange, i walked so damm fast to meet up with tf and i spot her den we walked like robots to hunt for lunch.
havin my day quite disturbed even when im eating. ppl kip smiling to me. hahas. thats my didi, cant blame lar. yeahs. went on to stroll around the area cos we'r bored with bugis and orchard so we decided not to go far, and we went to watch : THE ISLAND u know, this show is fantastic. with great endings. haha..i like i like` perrrfect show. so exciting, but sad to say, most of my friends don't appreciate action type movies. hahas.yeahs. and the show was great la.
it ended at about 7.45? and our legs hurts so much that tf can't walk properly and i was like limping away. ahhaha.anyway, i really had a fun time today. cos i did alot alot of imaginations.
sigh` whats wrong with me.
depression time.
give me back my fantasy
my torn and tattered soul`x(
12:18 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
had tution early in the morning with chad and everytime the tution turns out like a party, we ate 20 pieces of nuggets and tried the 4 new sauces and the wasabi really sucks. stinky smell- after that we said ghost stories, terrible. omg.and actually we'r not supposed to mention yet we were yakking away liddat. x( sigh` tonnes of homework waiting for me to complete and i only touched a maths qns. lols.
really in great sorrows.
nobody understands.
people might think im bad.
smiling very day like crazy girl.
and on my blog i was drowning with sadness. h
ow contradicting huh.
i always fake on my smile to tell people im alright.
and all along im lidat-
i wana go out.
i dunwan stay at home-
its so lonely.
when im alone i need to face all the facts that i don't want to.
[ [someone please mend this tattered, torn soul of mine- ] ]
6:44 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
really in great sorrows.
nobody understands.
people might think im bad.
smiling very day like crazy girl.
and on my blog i was drowning with sadness. h
ow contradicting huh.
i always fake on my smile to tell people im alright.
and all along im lidat-
i wana go out.
i dunwan stay at home-
its so lonely.
when im alone i need to face all the facts that i don't want to.
[ [someone please mend this tattered, torn soul of mine- ] ]
6:44 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, August 06, 2005
how sad, nobody dates me out, nobody brings me out. x(
due to the last minute changes, i was left at home, rotting at home. the whole day gone just liddat. i did nothing at all today, except for staring into blank spaces and thinking.
so lonely and depress.think im suffering from depression- nobody cares anyway. my parents dun care and don't even talk about my sis. they just can't be bothered with me. sometimes i just hope i can flung myself out from this 13th floor house. i feel as thou im octrazied. really. feel so empty-
i used to smile alot alot, what have i become to? someone who lost her own smile.
sigh` is this what i m used to be?
i choose to be like this- no regrets-
life is free. for now and forever.
i don't wish to say that i regret. cause i hate that feeling.
10:42 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
due to the last minute changes, i was left at home, rotting at home. the whole day gone just liddat. i did nothing at all today, except for staring into blank spaces and thinking.
so lonely and depress.think im suffering from depression- nobody cares anyway. my parents dun care and don't even talk about my sis. they just can't be bothered with me. sometimes i just hope i can flung myself out from this 13th floor house. i feel as thou im octrazied. really. feel so empty-
i used to smile alot alot, what have i become to? someone who lost her own smile.
sigh` is this what i m used to be?
i choose to be like this- no regrets-
life is free. for now and forever.
i don't wish to say that i regret. cause i hate that feeling.
10:42 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Friday, August 05, 2005
yeahs. we had our class debate today, 3e5 vs 3e3` and we won. 3e3 won. - best speaker` harkrishan- she speaks V well. impressive. if i were to speak like a helicopter like what i did today in the bus. fio just can't catch what i says. haha. so let the helicopter slow down its speed. so ppl can get me. x) i don't know what happened to me today. all of a sudden i feel that im so lonely when im in the library. thou my friends are just around me. but i felt im all alone. so i kept quiet all along. i had a v heavy lunch at the mac and on the way back to skull i was sucking a lollipop. and my bag is so heavy and i feel like crawling over the fence to get into the sch// im so sda today, my f&n work is ruined by that lydia. x( the paper that i typed untill i can vomit blood and yet she step on it and even tore it. wtf.` im gona tear ur's next time when i see it flys down to the ground. no mercy-
sigh` im turning so nasty nowadays. am i? i don't even know myself too. a moment i can laugh and smile, another moment i'll turn cold and unfriendly. i tink im a very scary person.- i even fear of myself too.
[[ sometimes we had to risk in the dark to reach the light, but if i'd rather have i choice, i won't help myself out of this darkeness ]]
can someone date me just out?? bring me out??!!
im so lonely-
x(
10:42 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
sigh` im turning so nasty nowadays. am i? i don't even know myself too. a moment i can laugh and smile, another moment i'll turn cold and unfriendly. i tink im a very scary person.- i even fear of myself too.
[[ sometimes we had to risk in the dark to reach the light, but if i'd rather have i choice, i won't help myself out of this darkeness ]]
can someone date me just out?? bring me out??!!
im so lonely-
x(
10:42 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
my blog seemed to have problems. i can't read my own blog, neither can i read the others. the font is so extreme tiny that i need to strain my eyes till it looks something like van. haha. school's so not-interesting anymore. chem teacher didn't came today x( wilfred made a cow-din in the class showing Mr J-tan attitude. however, mr tan was much bearing than him, and that terrifies everyone in the class and shuts off daryl's mouth completely. how shocking huh. well, its non of my business anyway and i don't seemed to be interested.
hahaha. silver gort the least points in superstar. okie. sorry its so idiotic to blog abt this but i like junyang and kelly!!
humph`. tml theres english debates. i doubt my class is gona win. lol. this morning i p-urposl-y never wake my damm sis up. cos they always depend on me to call them up and im so irritated. so i left them in bed and hop i go out of the door~ how nice. this is my only chance to take revenge on u guys. xP
well, days are getting better in fact, he's no longer my fear or what. its so comfortable and relax to be in this manner. u know? hahas. i know u don't know. so nvm. x)
off to bed at10.17 pm.
joey speaks out loud.
12:18 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
hahaha. silver gort the least points in superstar. okie. sorry its so idiotic to blog abt this but i like junyang and kelly!!
humph`. tml theres english debates. i doubt my class is gona win. lol. this morning i p-urposl-y never wake my damm sis up. cos they always depend on me to call them up and im so irritated. so i left them in bed and hop i go out of the door~ how nice. this is my only chance to take revenge on u guys. xP
well, days are getting better in fact, he's no longer my fear or what. its so comfortable and relax to be in this manner. u know? hahas. i know u don't know. so nvm. x)
off to bed at10.17 pm.
joey speaks out loud.
12:18 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
though i will still feel sad about it. but i will get over it eventually
i miss pizza hut. i wana eat with jun yang and fio. hope he can make it. cos i wana eatt, take revenge. vent everything on fooooooood. but it doesn't take any effect on me. how sad.
met yiting in the morning and bumped onto kenneth, yeahs and we reached school, on-the-dot.
saw him. x(
gotta chase by eric-my son for recess duty. lol. its never one time me and fio do it properly. wth? had our idiot performance in the hall to entertain those indonesia ppl- and they only seemed to be interested in the SNO. how sad.x) yuuks.
sigh` whats the point of it.
yay!!!!!!!!! SUPPORT JUN YANG ppl. hahaha..x)
11:27 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i miss pizza hut. i wana eat with jun yang and fio. hope he can make it. cos i wana eatt, take revenge. vent everything on fooooooood. but it doesn't take any effect on me. how sad.
met yiting in the morning and bumped onto kenneth, yeahs and we reached school, on-the-dot.
saw him. x(
gotta chase by eric-my son for recess duty. lol. its never one time me and fio do it properly. wth? had our idiot performance in the hall to entertain those indonesia ppl- and they only seemed to be interested in the SNO. how sad.x) yuuks.
sigh` whats the point of it.
yay!!!!!!!!! SUPPORT JUN YANG ppl. hahaha..x)
11:27 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
[[ accept the fact ]]
today's always better than yesterday, at least part of me is back, it only happens in the moment of the things i saw. i kept starring into space, during p.e while the rest is playing like mad, i sat there. doing nth. so sad. i believe i will get over it soon` and i hopee i cann.
controlling was never my best and yet today it turns me out to be the one controlling, i had no choice, i don't wish to drop a tear infront of my friends. i don't want ppl to see the side that im fragile enough to break into bits and pieces.
slience doesn't mean everything,
u know, sometimes when one keeps quiet can mean that she's pondering?
thinking why she did that
and the answer is, she, herself don't even know
don't press her anymore.
cause she felt hurt.
guzheng sucks totally today, i hope tml we won't throw our own faces down to the audiences. x(
and a song someone sings, once upon a december.
11:16 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
today's always better than yesterday, at least part of me is back, it only happens in the moment of the things i saw. i kept starring into space, during p.e while the rest is playing like mad, i sat there. doing nth. so sad. i believe i will get over it soon` and i hopee i cann.
controlling was never my best and yet today it turns me out to be the one controlling, i had no choice, i don't wish to drop a tear infront of my friends. i don't want ppl to see the side that im fragile enough to break into bits and pieces.
slience doesn't mean everything,
u know, sometimes when one keeps quiet can mean that she's pondering?
thinking why she did that
and the answer is, she, herself don't even know
don't press her anymore.
cause she felt hurt.
guzheng sucks totally today, i hope tml we won't throw our own faces down to the audiences. x(
and a song someone sings, once upon a december.
11:16 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Monday, August 01, 2005
i went to school with my broken smile.
simply dead today, fiona is goin to shunn me if i continue to be like that. lols.
i know. everything is my fault, but what i want you is just to be happy, the rest doesnt matter,
time isnt what i need, it cant heal my everything.
nobody understands, if they do, they shouldnt be asking me why. only my close ones knows and understands me the best., maii hao jie jie ask me die die must cheer up lols. can i?
thoughts keep running through my mind, i can't possibly smile liddat =D now` ppl might think im nuts.
actually, theres alot for me to say here and here!! but i dunwan to. i just wana let myself know. thats all. i rather keep everything, everything to myself.
` [[ things my heart used to know,
things it yearns to remember` ]]
say goodbye ]]
11:15 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
simply dead today, fiona is goin to shunn me if i continue to be like that. lols.
i know. everything is my fault, but what i want you is just to be happy, the rest doesnt matter,
time isnt what i need, it cant heal my everything.
nobody understands, if they do, they shouldnt be asking me why. only my close ones knows and understands me the best., maii hao jie jie ask me die die must cheer up lols. can i?
thoughts keep running through my mind, i can't possibly smile liddat =D now` ppl might think im nuts.
actually, theres alot for me to say here and here!! but i dunwan to. i just wana let myself know. thats all. i rather keep everything, everything to myself.
` [[ things my heart used to know,
things it yearns to remember` ]]
say goodbye ]]
11:15 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
