together on a telephone line but living at the world's opposite ends.

Friday, September 30, 2005

my heart was covered with another stroke of pain`
too deep until it couldnt be healed`
i used to stand so tall and strong`
thought that nothing would go wrong`
yet i was wrong` i was hit so deeply`
until i wont want to get back anymore`
i want to be brave and fly with my wings`
say goodbye to my own story`

today` was pretty unlucky. i did so much things that made myself looked like a fool. okay. great me`
i left my booked in the library when i was actually reaching pasir ris interchange. so i took the bus back to take it. running like mad. then, during maths test, i was completely lost` so i slept and i dreamt of something so funny that i : haha" in my dreams. and that woke me up. such a disgrace.. after that. alot of things when on. shant mention. yepp. //
such an idiot. shouldnt have ask those things ...
weeping in this great sorrowness`

12:13 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, September 27, 2005

im sad. really sad. so depressed.
im a human too. u know? i have my feelings. i cant take it any longer. i cried agn. yes i did.
my heart was filled with too much of doubts. very miserable*
i dont wana say it here. but where else? i shant say what happen today. cos its already over.
annd u know? im not something that u can reach to ease ur boredness. pls get this clear. fuck off alright.`

x(

5:38 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, September 26, 2005

i flared up today. i mean i was in my mood during that time until something completely ruined it, i dont want to hear anymore stuffs. cause i dread them`. lol. i hope what i think is not gona happen on me. cause i know i will hate that person for sure.
Big thank you to wuye and dennis lao pa for teaching us poa. x)
spend my afternoon in the library to study. infact not really study ? haha. im such a disgrace. ive never put down my feelings to my friends even when im sad. but today. its different. i cant take it. so i went to a corner. sobbing to fiona. poor her. guess she got a shock. lol. anyway. i dont wana talk about it.
exams comiing. guess i wont wana blog or play that maple anymore. level 2o.more den enough. lol.
i wana do well for my tests. szeli's rtye. i come to sch is to study. not to let other things affect me. yup. thats the right phrase to describe my feelings to everything`
gre8` i love szeli! i love fiona! i love yiting! i love lindy!! i love tingfang! i love myself! x)

10:17 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, September 24, 2005

i need someone there for me`.
but i dont want either`
im sad.` depressed.`fed-up` sick`
i cant look at you. cause it made my heart sank deeply.`
looking at me makes my mind go in a whirl.`
emotionally hurt` x(

aye.` went shopping today. bought 5 different clothings, so bright colours. and v-cut. alamak looks nice on me. anyway. ive no clothes with that green before. its my mom wana buy, no choice. so now i had a green v cut top. lol. ate good food agn. im gona put on weight.
im really so freaking bad. i didnt smile to my buddies yesterday, just because im fed up. yar my heart stored too much that it wana burst`

x (

11:58 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

im still me`
nobody changes me`
i dont care any further`
its none of my business`

I WANA STUDY SHUT UP!!!!!!!!!!!!

3:47 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

maplingg with randal and naked kenneth` lol!!! me and yingying playing in wyman's condo's toilet haha!!!

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since when i
ever blogged a proper post?! no idea. yupp. days are getting more and more stressful. currently hanging too much with maple. lvlingg 2times each day. lol. im mad.
f&n is killing me. waste maii printer's ink!!!! how sad.

im so pissed yesterday. i don't even know i?! just because of that person i feel so pissed off. and fickleminded. wth. since when im like this?!

photoos and photoos. //

8:31 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, September 19, 2005

maii very own shanghai noodles!!! and fruit tarts!!! made by JOEY WAN!!!

Joeyy` LADYBIRDD

2:14 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, September 18, 2005

hiya!
since when i last blogged? heh heh. gona upload some photos to let yoo guys see!!! not now. currently stoning beside fio. tf's not here wid me. how sad. i miss her!!!

11:03 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, September 15, 2005

food stress!!!!

hiya!! i did alot of stupid stuffs. especially the singing in the car. this morning i was so bored. cos my cousin didnt want to talk at all. so i sang all the way to school. and got know theres this white car that went pass mine. and theres this kenneth waving to me so happily....and i reached sch. he asked me : u sang in the car rtye?! lol!!

after school, i went straight to NTUC to get my f&N stuffs for the tmr practical [ cant u imagine everybody's practicing how to cook their dish and had at least tried out once. and i didnt!!! hope that tmr's not a mess in the kitchenn!! ] yepp. those strawberries sucks. all rotten and fat ugly. it took me quite a while to get the nicest ones. fio and i went to the meat section to get lean chicken? what on earth is that. so i just any o how grabbed an old lady and ask her : can this meat be cooked with noodles? the minute she say yes and i grabbed it. although i dont know how to see whether isit fresh or not. haha. seriously. i get my whipped cream!!!

some stupid idiot screaming behind. wtf

11:15 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

maplingg` hahas. hazelnutties. that idiot!!!!

nice nice ar?! hehe.

4:17 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

yeahs!! i got a new com!! wakakas.

11:27 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, September 12, 2005

stress`

exams are comingg. start of the skull i heard teachers grumblingg : ur exams is around the corner.......'' its irritating` and im so freak out by it. i wana be a 12-hr good girl from now onwards. i thought i can by back home at 3. and im late. cos i waited for 1/2 hr at the interchange for that darn 293 to come. and guess what. i thought i could enjoy so air-con and just take a short nap. but that bus stinks and there's a very inconsiderate person eating her stupid dumb chicken wings infront of me. the smell is so yucky that made me wana puke. i feel so sick when i got off that bus and i just said that f* out liddat. baddie.`

reached home at about 3.30?! and i got myself into my room to lookout for my fengshui for studying`. im a weirdo who doesnt work on a proper desk that i have. as usual. i took out another table and place it infront of my window and started studying!! what a miracle huh.
yupp. so peeps out there. im nort gona blog so often anymore. aniway nobody read my blog. so it doesnt make ani differences. tatahs!!

love me`

6:55 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, September 11, 2005

im so bored. someone bring me out to cycle`.

5:52 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

alright. yesterday`we had a public performance. before that fio tf and i went for a movie. " The cave". its rather nice. but ive got my arms so uncomfortable. cos throughout the whole show. im just covering my ears. gre8` anyway. i liked it. we went for the neoprint thingy and it looks kinda nice. yupp`. hmm. after that. we reached skull and got ourself changed into the costume. hopped on the bus and went off to that open field ; i still thought that that open field is a very grand thingy` however its not. is just like a 7 mth ge-tai liddat.` alamak. but ms lau said that those ppl appreciate our music and stuffs liddat`.

went to mac. for supper.got myself my fave apple pie. haha` and went home. sometimes going home alone seemed so lonely and boring` dunno why` whatever.

3:32 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, September 10, 2005

BIG THANK YOU TO DARYL CLAYTOON AND WYMAN`.had a very wonderful 3e3 bbq today.
heh heh. at first i tot i was going to roam myself all the way to simei condo. in the end. yy and yans+wyman cum for my rescue. so i end up goin there earlier. daryl and claytoon was having a gre8 time in the pool. yy and yan. joined in. haha. i helped wyman to set up the bbq. waas stoning there for quite a moment. den i parade around the pool to ease my boredness.

i became claytoon's secretary. wakaka. i picked up his fone call for him for the whole day. and his fone is with me the whole day. nice rtye. kip playingg with it. ate alot of food. so bloated. and became so hyper to go round takingg pics with alann ,sherdion and gang`.

clayton's so funny` he apologize for not being able to accompany me. haha. nice friend indeed. *

1:29 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, September 09, 2005

changed my blogskin agn`. how isit? very different ryte? shopping queens anyway. i prefer the blackie old one. is just that im starting to get bored of it. <33

aniway. tmr theres so called 3e3 class bbq. did not intend to go. claytoon says that he would be my one-day bf. to accompany me the whole day. but it wasnt very nice for him to accompany me cos he said that he'd wana go for a swim and asked me to come along` and i was like. hello, i cant swim very well, except in 1.5 m pool. `considering. perhaps i may go. out of food. haha.

yeahs. havingg a hard time at tutionn. i felt so stress. i didnt feel that before. its was like. something that made me feel as though im nothing` a very stupid idiot.
i went home and had a 1/2 an hr dinner. cos i eat with my tears. out of stress. maths is something i detest alot. i tried to make myself to like it. but the fact tells me not. i feel like telling my mum that can i just quit tution.at least i wont waste a few bucks up to hundred very month?! whatever it takes. im so tired. really`.

12:21 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

to go or not to go? hard to decide. i wana go and eat. but lazy to take bus homee.* so confused. my ears cant function properly` cant hear what the heck im talkingg aboutt.

ok` im so boredd. HAHA where are my buddies. fionaa. where are youu!!! haha

12:04 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, September 08, 2005

reached home at 10 yesterday`. so late. called my papa to wait for me downstairs cos i dont dare to go up myself.

actually. pouring everything here doesnt make much of a sense.

12:00 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

shopaholic-me

yesterday went out wid my parents and sis of course. yarr. we did alot alot of shopping because OG says spend $75 onwards to get a member card. and imagine we've got 2 of them. i bought one Gio black squarish top which is i seldom wear it. but its nice. i like it with my pink pink pants. ater that, i bought a pair of white shoes like that pink pink one i had. but this time, its with a few coloured thingy on the top. like ballet shoes. xP yeahs. i shopped until my leg cramped agn. my mum bought an eyebrown shaver. duno what the heck is that. i play with it and now. my eyebrow looks abit weird haha. bought alot of cosmetics. my cousin, same age as me. is learning how to do make up and facial. how fun. becus her stream is nt and the course is to benefit them to get into ite next time. very fun right. theres also hair dressing courses. after the shopping thingy. we went all the way to marina bay to eat bbq steam boat. very cheap. one person only $10. its so yummy. had a great time with my family yesterday` x)
ltr going out agn`. LALALA. but gotta go tution first. cyaaa!

12:08 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, September 05, 2005

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12:55 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

cant get through the blogger yesterday, so i cant blog. okay. im just so happy` because after my oral, Mr Tan said : well done!! and im floating now. x)
My whole week of hols. is so packed. i only left wid 2 days to go out wid my friends which is also fully booked. so busy.

okok. now my neck hurts. cause i slept with 2 pillows yesterday due to my blocked ultra blocked nose. no cure anyway` theres a performances on saturday. tired. didnt practice at all.
i happened to see the ad on the movie :'' innocent steps" that tf was asking me about. yeahs. i think its quite an interesting show by seeing how they dance. so. tf i wan go watch!!! confirmed!!!

currently drowning myself into songs and music. im mad. although i cant sing now. im always the one that sings so much in the house. i want open karaokay to sing! but dunno how to fixed the mircofone thingy` xP

sometimes u wrote the things in ur blog is out of anger. But some people just don't believe me. how sad. nevermind. xP
im so ugly!!!!!!!!!!!

12:42 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, September 04, 2005

feel like plucking out my nose and my throat. they are killing me.` currently down with serious running nose and sore throat. just because i got drenched in the horrible rain and i ate too much of good food at suntec.
i ate alot of food like hotdog with mushroom cheese, laksa,apple pie,tuan yuan, shark fin,macau hot plate noodles,chwee kuehs, alot more. but i forgot what isit. of course i didnt ate them all! i shared with my sis hahas. and we'r havingg a great time. i spend both the weekends to suntec due to the com fair and food fair. yay!! im so glad that i bought a new com. so i can play maple ler. x)
currently verh full` and sick. omg.-

sometimes i just dislike the way people behave. saying no more- shudd up
AND YOU` GET LOST` I DUNWAN TO TALK TO YOU ANYMORE`

8:02 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, September 03, 2005

none could feel d pain. see the tears, hear the sad voices.

u told me to move on` can i?
u told me that dun let u slow down my life` can i?
how could u say all that, how i wished u didnt say it all at all.
u 'r the one i nidd. and i cant`

9:52 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

i wonder why i loved to stare into the empty spaces everyday
and ppl thought that im mad for some reasons
sometimes thinking that makes me feel that im a real idiot that doesnt know how to think.
life is like that, everything is beyond our control, isnt it?
somethings are perishable and cherishable. arent they?
not looking back, cos i know theres more for me to see eventually.

kelly lose. im so sad. my mum is so happy so does my dad. aha. cos they support that kelvin la. x(
whatever supertar.
my mum just bought me a yellow and green froggy pouch. nice. i like. homework day tml. got a feeling that i will rot at home and grow papaya tmr. nvm. i will find a chance to get out to go the food fair at suntec. wakakas. shun bian go the com fair. cos im buying a new one soon` x)
got back my results. not very happy with it. cos i did quite badly for my chi. for the first time. i gt A1 for my f&n hahaha. okok. whatever.anyway.

lindy cut my fringe for me today. got it shorter. and we fight like mad today just becos i sang hollaback girl. anytink wrong with that song?! haha.

12:21 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, September 02, 2005

its always painful for one to look back. so it happens the same to me.

1:05 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.