Monday, January 30, 2006
CNYo2went to grace lodge to visit my great-grandma. she turns 94.she looked so slim, the people there doesn't seemed to treat their patients with care.they seemed so clumsy with those old folks. hah. well, its kinda happy to see her. :) i love you grand grand ma.stayed at my granny's hse which is just opposite mine. -.- cousin pamela ryan came. and never forget about lynette and zavior. soo cute! but my aunty's grandson is even cuter! wahaha. i became his [ biao-gu ] so orbiang name. haha` how cute!yst we wore kimonos and posed. my mom was laughing her heads off. gambled haha. i lost so i quited. and i lay on the sofa for the whole afternoon cause im having a great headache. lol.panadol doesn't seemed to work.sigh` two tests waiting for me. physics and chemistry. i wana see how badly will i be doing.goodness gracious. dig my brains off.
8:42 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, January 29, 2006
Somewhere out there beneath the pale moonlightSomeone's thinking of me and loving me tonightSomewhere out there someone's saying a prayerThat we'll find one another in that big somewhere out thereAnd even though I know how very far apart we areIt helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright starAnd when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullabyIt helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big skySomewhere out there if love can see us throughThen we'll be together somewhere out thereOut where dreams come trueAnd even though I know how very far apart we areIt helps to think we might be wishing on the same bright starAnd when the night wind starts to sing a lonesome lullabyIt helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big skySomewhere out there if love can see us throughThen we'll be together somewhere out thereOut where dreams come true
7:43 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
my CNY ; staying at home, like a statue. wahaha. grrr`its pretty bored. and i really feel like SLEEPING! perhaps because of the medication. loli ate, chocolate, crackers, NUTS. and my poor throat. :)angbaos and angbaos. and we gamble lol. i lost. i wana wear kimono!! my pyjamas. wahaha. zzzhow dare you call her that?! grrr. nevermind. i can't hold a candle to you ANYWAY. im just jealous. wahaha.somewhere out therewe'll be tgt.i'll be holding on, till you'r back for me.
7:18 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, January 27, 2006
i want to wear a ring!!!!! stupid clayton, the hand doesn't looked as if it belongs to him, i can't believe he got such nice hands. wahaha. anyway that ring looked especially nice for him. im so BORED` why doesn't my throat feeling any better? you know, i want to eat nice food tonight. haha! im craving for food. im so hungry, where's mama. im dying of hunger wahaha.there's nothing much for me to blog* bored. bored. panda tang di , 13 oct, won't forget de. x)
11:47 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Giving someone all your Love is nv an assurance that they will love u backDo not expect Love in returnJust wait for it to grow in their heartBut if it does notyou will find yourself Being contented that it grews in yours.......early in my morning, 5.15. i was awaken by a msg from a person that could give me happiness and all. he was nice, but he never know that who really hids in the back of my heart, it was you.
7:47 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i think i missed my chance i didn't mean it, i can't get out of my house. ):other days, perhaps. its all fate* if we were meant to be tgt :)i believe-
7:54 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
perhaps i saw something that i shouldn't see. thou it was not representing anything clearly, but the common sense would tell that its trying to say that they are. j/l? whatever.i can't be bothered with my current situtation ; and where im standing. or who you wana make as your final. i won't bother anymore. i will carry on till that day and everything will come to an end. whatever it is, i don't wish to think either to predict. whatever it comes, i'll just accept. :))CNY concert, not bad, chinese dance with 2 weeks of practice, incredible. C.O just established, not bad`. i like WUSHU! impressive! haha. i think im a nut. i kept looking at those eyes to see what the hell is the person's reaction when looking at the performance. too bad, i cant get anything out of it. lol i guessed im just too tired about everything` :)whole life, in a great mess, freaking random. i have no sense of direction, where am i heading to? i don't know either.
2:09 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Thursday, January 26, 2006
please say that im in your heart ; getting the slightest loveim contented* //love you`
6:24 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
yes, im sick. skipped school. and yiting dearest* too.we went to the clinic ard fiona's old hse. and got out MCs. four o4 packet of tablets. wahaha, eat until mad.my head feels so heavy. gona drop down soon`.i wana see that match, too bad, we've no idea where isit. haha`i believe in what i see, i know you will be back for me. and i hope it will come truee*//confidence is the key to all - by fam yiting`*
12:01 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
sick, i've got shivers, fever, flu, sore throat. everything that could kill me right now.i don't have the brain to think anymore.i scribble loads of craps for my essay, i even risked to write argumentative :))i trembled during CT and i felt so cold. kept sneezing till my nose and throat are so itchy yaya`. thats so freak.guessed i won't wake up tmr
7:07 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
u know how it feels like when your blood boils so much and when all your blood vessels are going to burst at their very end? this is how i feel like when i was in school in the afternoon`LOL i screamed, cried like a mad, shrew.` phew. and i ate to vent my anger. wahaha. chicken chicken. after that, yiting and i went to the facial shop to trim our eyebrows. pain can. haha. and i think i looked abit of weird. lol` so i went to bought a big bar of crunchy chocolate and eat and eat. now, i think i got a sore throat. LOL!EYE BAGS GET LOST! go away- *
7:23 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Monday, January 23, 2006
today's such a hell for me.we had practical for f&n. TAUHU GORENG! and my body was filled with the smell of deep fried oil! cos ive been helping alan, izzuan, clayton, milstein, yanling and yingying to fry their TAUHU! and i almost burnt the WHOLE COOKERY ROOM DOWN! my left hand which was holding the cloth which was placed on the handle on the wok and IT CAUGHT FIRE!!! of course i throw away the cloth la. den scream and scream like mad. lol` den the oil` so irritating until it SPLURT onto my FINGER! it HURTS!BUT, guess how much i scored for MY BELOVED TAUHU GORENG?! 9/10!!!! YAY! i know how to cook, yes i know! hahaha. not shu ka liao le/ :))during physics, i dropped the testube which hit the retort stand, luckily joey taught the testube not to be so fragile. thats why it never break :)) hahaha!! then, we went shopping, and the stupid leg of mine CRAMPED. so pain! and it is still cramped. NOW! hurts so much. YAY~ we'r planning for a house hopping for CNY! hehe excited. hehetmr im gona have another heart attack again`. LOL! :))blessed joee*lovedyou`lovedyoustill`lovedyouforever*
6:17 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
i don't want to have PANDA EYES for new year!!!! panda eyes , go away!!
9:06 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
chinatown, worst nightmare.someone stepped on my beloved toe, i almost cried out. its so pain. besides!!! i painted MY TOENAILS.walked walked walked, it rained rained rained. and i got a headache. people everywhere, so many red red CNY stuffs. makes me so excited.I BOUGHT A SNOOPY FOR MY DARLING FIONA!!! SO CUTE!IM DYING FOR THAT WATCH I SAW AT PARCO, PINK PINK HEARTS HEARTS FEMINE. OMG! I WANT IT, I MAKE SURE I WILL BUY IT! and i WILL!!!PEOPLE! im so happy today :))its enough for me.
7:58 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
It was always you who run after me in the past,Now, i should be the one to run after you.i chose to wait ; thou i do not know how long it will take.But still i will, wait for you.cause you are that only someone who can walk into my heart.still, unchanged. for you*
8:15 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
here i am, once again. :)today, we supposed to have our cca fair, so we got to school around 8.oo? and we'r like statues, situated everywhere.so lindy help me drawed my eyes! woah, it don't look any bigger, but my lashes are longer` x) and i learnt from her the techniques of drawing eye` wakaka. fun can. draw until like monster then go parade. lol.after that, we went to the toilet to get change, and we bumped into her. But i didn't give her much attention, cos im rather interested in my eye` :)) so we went off walking steadily out of school with homeclothes. and a christmas tree*then we went bugis, i bought a STRAW BERRY earring! so CUTE! and a pair of silver studs. then we went on to bugis street and we caught wuye and gang. cus kianhao wore a RED TEE, and fiona caught him in the eye. HAHA`we went back to tampines to catch the movie [ The Memoirs of A Geisha ] nice thou. romance. love. what so ever. haha.then we went to bedok for pool`. i wasn't really in the mood. cos im feeling so giddy. and i just didnt want to say. so i requested to go back and we bumped into them la.and i took a cabby home 5 bucks gone. :(seriously not feeling well. off to rest.true love never dies, isit that TRUE?
9:29 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, January 20, 2006
there is something that i see,
in the way, you looked at me,
there's a smile, there's a truth, in your eyes
But an expected way,
On this unexpected day,
could it mean this is where i belong?
It is you l`ve loved all along-
It's no more mystery
It is finally cleared to me
your the home my heart searched for, so long
and it is still you i have loved all along
But, it wasn't me that you loved.
tears fell like rain that day, i found out that i wasn't the one who you are looking for, it was her.
beautiful illusions, beautiful hopes, shattered ; into bits and pieces
whenever i heard of you two, my heart shrinked so much that it would want to stop beating
whenever i saw you, my mind went into a state of blackout that you wouldn't know
don't leave me behind to solve this puzzle, you know i couldn't make it.
there's so much, so much to say.
But i rather i keep you into my heart and hide away.
i love you, yes i still do.
your past.
yours truely, joey
her confessions*
1:57 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
i can't say that im happy`i am just contented ; relieved.at least i know, i still exist in there.thank you. and its more than enough` :))today`s such a lonely day. fiona's absent and i looked so stupid going round looking for her. haha. anyway, thats my usual routine* yupp`. early in the morning rajan came into my class and caught 1o peeps with no proper storybooks. LOL incredible` so she screamed and screamed. and during recess, lindy and i came upon one whole lot of students sitting in the foyer, lectured by her. don't she get tired? then, we had our consultation that ends at 4.oo and debate. my son, eric. im so PROUD of you`. and of course, we won.after that, tingfang and i went to buy pencil case. 6 bucks. lol and i wana eat that chicken, but im kinda full. so i didn't. so we said gdbye.and i met ken, randal and peizhi at small mac so we waited for this prince kenneth to finish his applepie and we took 293 and went home haha. such a coincidence. i wana smile for you :))i don't mind`
6:42 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Monday, January 16, 2006
i can't stand myself any further,dwelling onto something which will never return?but i've decided,i will keep you in my heart, deep down.cause i still believe you will come back for me one dayplease don't forget me, will you?i just can't take you off my mind.holding on there*
4:22 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, January 15, 2006
harhs, yesterday, we had our flagday. so pathetic. i actually had 8 stickers out of three pages. so sad. however, there's a mr nice guy who donated 1o bucks for me! im so happy till i want to fly.we'r given 4 hours or so to ask people donate. so fiona and i hanged around city hallwe walked and walked, and we saw so many church, so romantic. and i even swear that i wana get married there. haha` anyway, its not possible anymore. i dragged my feet, my shoes were so big and were giving me blisters. it hurts. i think we'r abit kuku. fancy standing infront of that church that i LOVED it so much and we posed. lol romantic can! the weather is sooo hot and i sweat so damm much. msging and walking at asking ppl to donate at the same time. so uncomfortable.after the donation, fiona, szeli yiting and i headed to bedok for pool. and we meet kian hao, amos, lichuan , seb and xianli there. and i WON SZELI twice, and yiting once! x) hehe. damm fun. and this fam yiting had her leg cramped. haha` i was laughing my heads off.my sis actually said that i looked great only in PHOTOS*! wth. okay. i admit. im not pretty. whatever.behind these faking laughter.
4:38 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, January 14, 2006
i should be happy, i should.there's so much of memories left with me.however, i was told to get rid of it, cause its telling me that it hurts.i can try to pretend, i can try to forget. but it wasn't enough.the whole world is sleeping.and alone in this dead night, i cried, trying to bring back the old me.i felt so unwanted and useless.greatest fool on earth.[[ when love flies away up high into the skies, it is just like a balloon. you can't reach for it, but you can only see how it flies away from your side. ][
9:25 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i gave up` in the end,i kept lying to myself, that wasn't gona be the truth.but things were all beyond our control, feelings too.and i actually had a talk with her. how great, i finally understood why you chose her, cause she's a billon times better and a worth loving person.thou heart would break, im sure i can mend it back myself.don't hate her, don't. cos i liked her.well, everything had solved. there's nothing now. i LETgo, lil by lil` x)
8:52 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, January 13, 2006
yst. i was so bored. so i was sitting my my roller chair and i roll here and there! AND my phone slipped off my fingers and i was like juggling the phone twice. LUCKILY, it didnt touch the ground.HAHA` -.- it it dropped my heart would crack man` bored. such a early morning, i woke up alone` nobodies in the house, except me and the four walls. all gone to JB! sigh` nenepoopoo` i won't starve to death either.today, im going for the dono what flag day thingy`. boring. and only mine is at bugis. so suck. so we made an arrangement is that, im going to find the rest at city hall after collecting the tin. heehee. but i don't know where is the exact location too. =xa BRAND new day. for me. hahahahahaha! -.-yes, i LOST my mind.
7:12 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i really felt like im the world's biggest fool on earth`. hahaha. and im still be able to laugh`. lol. backbreaking p.e lesson made me wana die. run for twoo rounds. not run, i mean walk. haha. then, after school. im so happy to become a teacher. and my student's name is called : xinyi. such a sweetie. after my lalalala about guzheng! se got it all in her head. hahaha~ that makes so me happy for the day. happy stuffs dont usually last. haha. yar. and here i go agn`. LOLwe had our 4e3's class banner today. super plain. but i painted those hearts okay. and now, my back is so pain! haha. and i dirtied my school uniform. zzz`after that, we bid goodbye to each other and i came home. so sucky. i liked what tf typed in her bloggie. x)*sigh` tmr and tmr im home ALONE! my whole family is leaving me for J.B again` and i left all alone` goodness. nevermind. we had our deal. we'r going for pool. XP gona teach lindy how to play. waheheim still so happy that i won RANDAL! wakakaka. xPokays. all those sucky stuffs. shooo`. cus its a brand new me. the previous had died. =D
5:49 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
iLETgo; bit by bit lil by lil-don't rush me, i will get it deleted from my memory, i just need more time. x)
6:27 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
will it stop raining? go away.shrucks. im so bad. or perhaps im bad all along.i learnt my lesson. and i regretted loads.those things that i never say it out properly leds to what it is now.i won't shed anymore tears, today would be the final. looking at my girls giggling, smiling away makes me feel that im still alive. especially fiona, thats the first time i see her face with such a radiant smile. go girl. haha. lindy also. lol` two of them sitting infront me me smsing here and there. harhs. *jealous!! haha. lol.monday. i will be cooking for f&n! haha. chicken dono what. i suppose it is curry? haha. anyway, looking forward to it. yummie! yiting ar! i need apron on monday!! wash wash! x)i dont wana have p.e! shut that crap` talking no more.smell the smell of happiness*
4:03 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
again. the old aged story came alive .sigh` must i always be the one standing in the middle? i looked so outkast. [ a word learnt from clayton ] duh. its not whether to accept it or something girl, is whether am i able to or not. fly me down to hell.
7:24 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
slept at 12 plus yesterday, cant get into bed. tears wet my pillow and freaking dramatic. luckily there's still someone available for me to vent my everything out. thanks anyway. x)went to school, with that bloody sulky and pale face. and first thing i came into class, Mr Lio looked so shocked to see me. and asked whether am i sick. yes i am. mentally sick. my darn eyes gave me out. swollen or something? people looked at me as if im a freak. so i forced a smile out of my face. to give a " im okay" look. well, no big deal. like tf said : wei zi ji er huo" nice phrase. LALALALALALALA. i looked like a clown. don't i?whatever. tmr's another brand new day!let time takes my everything away.if humans don't feel pain and that would be great. and i think i will become one of that.
1:53 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
cry me a ocean.don't mess with me anymore,im really lost this time. fucked up.
8:35 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i thought you would keep your promise to her.i guess u break it.regardless of isit a fact or whatever,i take it as a truth,i won't turn back anymore,i lose faithi cried, i really did.u won't know.this will be the first and last goodbye.final goodbye to you.
7:56 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
today's such a nice nice day!actually fiona. clement randal kenneth and i planned to go bedok to play pool de. then, our fiona goh didnt bring her ezlink with her, so we cant get there. so we went safra cos kenneth's sis was there so we'r able to get it. haha` all the table there so LONG. and there's only TWO tables for pool. so we waited. and at last we got that table. ahha. so fiona and i started off first. and i almost win de. den this kenneth help me shoot the black ball into the wrong pocket! and i lose! wasted. after my game i began to have headache lol. so i kept quiet all along and fiona played with ken's sister. today im so proud of myself wakaka. i WON RANDAL!!!! haha. suddenly i became so pro. LOL and fiona won kenneth. hehe.after all that pool thingy, we headed off to long john silver for dinner. and this clement is so gay. ahah` he actually said that he kept the heart that kenneth folded FOR TWO YEARS. god. hahaha. and randal's too. hahaha. so funny. and we said gdbye to clement and fiona. so left with kenneth randal and i. we took the same bus home and i feel so sleepy. when i reached my hse, randal is so kind that he sent me to my lift. AHAH` -.- yepp. thats all for today. really fun`. =P
7:35 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Monday, January 09, 2006
ive typed soo long yesterday, and an error ruined everthing! had quite a nice time with the o3s threes. yar, that include tf, lin and fio. we ate, shopped and chat. lol. nice timee indeed. and today! im gona get the WATCH. wakaka. i still prefer watch in whitee.i walked around tm and i saw this pink musical box, so lovely and i feel like buying from the start, however, ive no idea why i want that. crazy. lindy said : ni yao na ge lai zhuo si me?" quite true la. but it is so sweet. ahha. okay whatever.wonder should i buy that wallet. damm cheap leh. but then i seldom use wallet, cos i think its so bulky. AHHA` lalala.YAY! later im off with fio, clement and randal. pool agn`. maybe? haha. I WANA BUY WATCHES. hehe.lalalala,when sugar dissolves, it spreads happiness,but why can't i feel it?
7:57 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i miss you loads. * / /
8:42 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
had a lil disagreements with my mama again. well, thats my everyday life, i don't know whats wrong with her either, don't even know what i did to provoke her so much` lol. whatever. sigh` my poor sunday is gone. im gona have tution on SUNDAY! =x hope jackson cant make it on SUNDAY. doing maths,chinese and english tys and alot of other stuffs. so busy. and this weather makes me wana go to bed. so freezing cold.sigh` semi quiting maple. hurray. anyway, whenever i saw my homosexual char i wana vomit. the hair simply sucks. and im so stupid. today, theres somebody who defame me for NOTHING and i thought he famed me. lol so i famed back. and in the end i found out it is a defame. T_T stupid me. so STUPID.my mom says i don't have a BRAIN for studying. sooo heartbrokened.what mama i have. =xbored. find me colours to paint the skies. so DULLi want to eat KFC, pasta mania whatever stuffs. its raining. i cant go out and EAT!!!! =xargh` super super jealous. nevermind. ((:i lived my dreams and not dream my dreams.[[ when sugar dissolves, it spreads happiness. ]]
9:59 PM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Friday, January 06, 2006
bored, bored, boredmunching chachoscant get into bedsleepless nightsendless daysbored bored bored I WANT TO WATCH MEMOIRS OF GEISHA!! somebody bring me to watch that
7:00 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
how silly am i uh? the bet. and the answer is, not to. isit?aiyoyo. i lost my voice. lol. we had our cca fair today. FOR THE FIRST TIME, so many girls interested in guzheng! good sign man` heehee. im like a mad woman walking round the school everyday, idiotic hair. ive no idea how to tie it. LOL. so fiona and i hanged around and grab people to join guzheng. i was explainiing like hell and i lost my voice. =x cant sing anymore. HAHAHAHA.seeing those sec one peeps make me feel so OLD. really old. lol. then, we went to see the bb. and we sat around the changing room, taking photos with my hp. nice nice! obessions man.tell me, what should i do,im jealous! yes im! humph~
5:29 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Thursday, January 05, 2006
Those lovely days, beautiful smiles,sweetness and love,where had they gone to?come back, all.CRY ME A RIVERdon't leave me with tears, bring me the smile. ((:love you`still
5:35 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
another day, school's boring, none of the lessons had started except for my beloved physics. hehe. i think i must be mad. working so damm hard now, i even bought a planner to plan my own time. besides all these, i took a notebook which tf bought for me to school and to jot down notes. and i did. thats a miracle. wondering could all these replace the piece of my heart which i had lost? lol.after school, i want to finish up my first composition is 2oo6, but i felt that this was the first time i did it so sucky without standard, just like a primary school kid english and i asked lindy to read it thru. and she exclaimed. : why your english become like that, wheres all your chim chim english? " haha. funny thou, so i tore away that paper and prepare to write another one again.i envy my own friends, they found out who they belonged to and found their happiness, seriously happy for them. always trying to console people when they have a broken heart. Now, i guess it is my turn. haha. laughing at myself, at my plight. lol. i think i did miss out alot of stuffs which i didn't know.the truth, the facts that you didn't tell me,you hide yourself away, what am i left with? all those questions that u gave and left me with doubts.i don't know what am i supposed to do.i am tired, tired of everything.don't push me any further, thats my limitfragile. dont break it.
4:01 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
kinda of not in the mood today.had a big switch during chinese lessons. we used to have lynette and peeps, tingfang, vanessa amy to be in our chinese class. and now, we had yiting in our class, YAY` great change. harhs. well, kind of weird to see new faces in my class. hehe. i day dreamed for the whole day. perhaps its partly the place where i sit. My desk was directly beside the door. and wind was blowing, cooling and that made me feel so sleepy. ms fong turned to be our maths teacher. can 4e3's maths get cured? without F9's? lol. we try uh.im preparing for a maths test on friday. kinda of looking forward to it. haha. -.- p.e lessons, i still dont like p.e. today we took over height and weight! IM FAT! =x and i didnt grow tall at all.sigh` we had to run today during p.e. and my hair clip keeps falling off my head. thats such a pain. irritating! cut it all off la. lolshe said she understand me,but it is not, cus she don'tshe said im not that kinda person that will study,i'll prove you all wrong,you took away my dreams and left me a broken heart today, did you ever notice?you didn't.i always thought that no matter what i do you might not care, and i was wrong, you didn't care, yet, you don't believe in me, you looked down on me.and i always thought i wouldn't want to make it as my choice, i thought being a nurse is more than enough. and now, i think it is more than just that. im gona prove you wrong. i had enough of what you want to say. leave me alone, dont try to change my life. unless im dead.
2:57 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
first day of school, was not a very great one. first thing in the morning, i woke up late, and the lights in my room went berserk, causing me not to tie my hair. and i was force to tie in on the MRT train. HAHA and it was darn messy like freak. and till school, i comb and comb and see no difference, so i went out with that funny hair around with that clip, looks weird to me, i dont care. haha. early in the morning, principal talks so much that i cant stop yawning, almost fell asleep in the morning assembly. harhs.` then, we went back to our respective classes, and something so sad happen again, my WHOLE BAG drop on the ground ! T_T my poor handphone. haha. okay. whatever` yepp.that was all FINE` except hearing Mr Lim telling me that : ive told mr lio that i have appointed you as the poa rap for this year. " and i was like WTH? so i gave such a unbearable smile that i think it is so ugly. AHHA. then, finally poa lesson, he came to the class and annouce to the WHOLE class in a very suan manner. he said : this year, ive choosen the most beautiful girl in the class, and she i none other than JOEY~." and i was like covering my face everywhere. i know i dont looked extraodinary pretty or what so ever.sigh` so unfortunate. T_T nevermind. after school, szeli lindy yiping and i got the eagles award on stage, so malu. i must be looking weird on stage. HAHA. im so happy that i completed ALL my hols assignments!to hate is very tiring, isn't it? so i won't hate anymore. im gona smile infront of you and let you get what im trying to say cause you simply suck too much. LOLwhy does my best pal often get bullied by people? or isit she's too soft spoken in the sense that she's too fragile? sigh.If we were to put on the brave and hide the fragile side of us away, things would be in a different situation. we might get to see the sun, happiness and those peaceful atmosphere.If we were to keep clinging onto the fragile side of us, all we would see is hurt, saddness, darkness, what for? we smile for who we are. aint that right?perhaps all i could do is just smile, a smile could hide away everything. deep, so deep inside.
7:36 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, January 01, 2006
im craving to know what are you thinking of now and then,but i simply couldn't catch it anywhere,those beautiful dreams seemed to be flying around, however, not into my handsi squat at one corner, always thinking that what would be the ending of that storytell me` is this how it was suppose to end? and tears dripped down from those cheeks and wet the last page of the fairytale...
6:19 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
i cant afford to bear those emotions anymorei have no confidenceim not like the othersif i'd have a choice, i won't say goodbye.
5:31 AM
i stayed up nights
until the stars leave the skies.
