together on a telephone line but living at the world's opposite ends.

Thursday, March 30, 2006

i got my butt bruised by the people in my class. they are mad! they bullied my butt. how pain! ((:

u know, i met this bloody fat ass infront of the library, she bumped onto me and i screamed of course and she actually gave me that "look", and later on, she almost bumped onto yiting ( i think) and that girl said : gui jiao. hello? she thought she had a very outstanding looks or what? or a perfect slim body to show off? but infact, she lack of all these. young people are just so rude.

i don't wish to open my mouth and speak on non-relevant stuffs, don't ask me any further, im sick of this.
just fuck off, and get out of my sight.

i don't have a nice character and i don't have nice mood now .
put me to another place whereby im all alone, i'll feel better.
nobody cares.

7:43 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

according to someone's post, about the previous post and the words in tiny fonts is not refering to you la. hahaha. anyway. i also don't know whose that idiot who typed that. ((:

5:26 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, March 27, 2006

i recite all the happenings around me
i kicked it the second time and i know its final (:
My happiness ; short-lived , ain't implying on anything.

The contradictions in life, made me lost in my way.
But ive no fear anymore, ive my goals, my focus. ((:

ps : this isn't being poetically pathetic.

i wana be who i wana be from now.
nobody's gona alter my life.

i smile cause i know there's always a rising sun awaiting for me. xD

i went to the cemetery yesterday. got myself tanned, just nice. something so hilarious happened. my great aunty actually knocked onto somebody's tomb and one of the lions almost fell off, thank god my father caught it and push it back to its orignial position. just imagine a group of 10 standing in the whole middle of the cemetery laughing like nobody's business, doesn't sound right uh? haha.

Evening, we exchanged lifts and went to party cause its wilson's birthday. Ordered buffet and stuffs.

i found out that gobbling food in a foul mood does help! hahaha! can i gain weight?

7:51 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, March 26, 2006

((: its just me.

8:47 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, March 24, 2006

okay , WE the GUZHENG ensemble is gona perform on HONOURS DAY! well, it seemed to be a great thing, but it is a form of humilation and subsitution. Just because we had half-stepped down and there's chaos ? so pissed with those people, of course not our guzheng people.

So what? what if the whole school dislike us? have comments on us? SO? i care? we already "proved" our ability, unlike some other, don't practice what they preach.

They side to those and didn't even take a GOOD look about what have they got in them. Mr NG, worse of the very worse! some useless dummy in the school, only use his bloody mouth to talk and to bully the weak ; super bias. wtf? LOL.

i gona practice hard now. so long since i last touch my own guzheng!

if i ever find out who she was, im gona scream from the top to her toes and make her suffer like hell! wahaha. zzz.

8:21 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

im weird , im bad , i suck at maths , im stupid , with cock eyes and hands!
thats all about me. LOL

haven't been really updating all those stuffs lately, kinda of lost and no mood. im so depress by my probability which i yearn to bang the wall and jump off the building. it made my blood boils SO MUCH! okay, full-STOP!

ive been working alone in class everyday, or should i say most of the time perhaps i might suffer from depression! HAHA (:

hooked onto the new game "conqueronline" i suck at that too. but finally i managed to survive and im at lvl 10 now. thou is slow but its challenging okay. testing my left and right brain skills. LOL! im such a idiot.

u know? i had my dinner with yiting on such a big bowl! when i was carrying the food , i felt as thou i was carring a small fish tank. HAHA. anyway, i was so bloated that i wana vomit. XD

i love freedom ; thats me. take it or leave it. (:

8:47 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

so so so depress.

it was supposed to be an A1... argh.

whatever.

6:26 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, March 19, 2006

the last choice , the last decision

it wasn't right afterall.

6:02 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, March 17, 2006

ive a nasty temper , i get super jealous easily.

how can YOU YOU YOU compare me and HER?! GRRRR`

8:11 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

went shopping with my mommy and that stupid jeany. i conned my mom alot of stuffs today. wahaha. i wore a pair of shoes with abit of height ( fiona has one too(: ) which causes me to have blisters, so my mom bought me a pair of new shoe. woohoo!

and then, she bought me one crazy ring which had a big, blue shiny FAKE diamond on it. wahaha. so crazy. yea. and we went on shopping, bought facial stuffs. blah blah blah.
and around 5 plus, we went to eat porridge and after that we went back shopping. and around 7 plus, we went to bedok with my papa to eat chicken rice and then went home. hehe.

my sis call me a washing board. fuck that. i hate it.
why do i have to go to school tmr! LOL

7:59 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Monday, March 13, 2006

im so drained,
watched campus superstar , adriano! so cute! LOL, my idol!
i miss fiona,
The flu don't seemed to go away
YAY! i got my phone back!

shopping spree tmr! <33

stick with you by pussy cat dolls. <3

7:17 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, March 11, 2006

YAY! i won! i won! i won!
4e3 ; 3rd BEST CLASS! im so proud of 4e3!
alright, today's the sports day for siglap secondary. and i was wearing the T-shirt which i was damn proud of, because, firstly, it was specialised for 4e3, secondly, it was DESIGNED by daryl! and our class tee was quite an outstanding one. indeed. The six was all sitting together and we crap and chat alot. We watched the others run and we cheered. I was meddling with my stupid eye and my bloody throat. i coughed and almost vomit when talking to yiting.

Finally, i was called out for my event ; 4x1oo. Actually, i thought our class wouldn't be the one winning. cause, all the other teams were strongly built, plus, we have our great ayu, injuring her leg. so, much of our confidence is already drained out. But when the BEEEP sound goes off, yanling sprinted so fast that we were taking the lead, and nadia coming at a very fast speed and eventually the sec5s taking over us and when it comes to me, i was running that the second position on the curve. i kicked my own leg and almost fell. BUT i didn't. so i continue to run and run till i reached ayu and we managed to retain a 3rd position.
we were all very elated, but we'r happy not because we won, its because we proved to some people that we' aren't weak. infact stronger than you think. (: i got a medal leh! FIRST TIME!
wahaha. zzz. ma chiam i so sua ku liddat. HAHA

was dragged out by my parents in the evening, despite my eye and the terrible headache i have. we went shopping, and i got some nice hair clips, jeans and stuffs. haha.
i found alot of nice nice stuffs that i craved to buy. especially watches. although i have plenty of it, but my mother and i share the habit of buying watches despite having loads of them.

resting time. (:

i miss my fiona~

7:34 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, March 10, 2006

My eye really hurts badly that i couldn't blink! PAIN PAIN PAIN!
argh! 4x1oo, im gona lose for sure. i cant run, cus yst, i coma too much that i go knocked my knees against my bed and it hurts badly!!! hope i won't fall flat on the track tmr! LOL

argh! im HANGING between YOU people.
extreme undesirable conditions that im dealing with.
Rotate my smile, bring it back.
somebody's altering my life, cause they know i don't like losing, even there's a slighest chance of winning, i would risk everything for it.

its just the split moment, eveything felt so different.
all the story that happens tomorrow, belongs to me, its mine.

7:28 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, March 09, 2006

i thank god ! cause my fever had gone down!
i went coma at 8.3o with a long pants, jacket and 3 blankets, under the fan till this morning.
and i woke up, so charged up with energy! and off i go to school. smiling like mad, as usual and i realised that, actually smiling is the best medicine to cure any sickness! (:
as usual, lessons are incredibly boring. and i scored 15/20 for my GEOGRAPHY. claps claps for joey!!! thats crap lar. cus its a semi open book test and we'r allowed to copy one page of notes. but i didn't. i merely tore out one page of the stack of geo notes. haha. Lazy people work like me.

Chinese lesson. actually, ms zheng wasn't that bad afterall, she looked nicer IF she smile. and throughout the whole lesson, ive been in coma, just feel like demostrating what she did. wahaha. extremely funny! then, we'r assigned to write a "wu xia xiao shuo" and here comes my crazy idea. LOL. i just feel that im a rubbish bin FULL of NONSENSE!

sigh. my great nose ; falling

6:49 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

my head's burning ; 38.1 degree celsius.
i woke up with my throat damn painful and i had a dream. i dreamt that i LOST MY VOICE and i couldn't sing like what i did last time. HAHA.
Then, coming to school with my hair freaking messy cus my sister took away my clip.
I sneezed so much and kept groaning in class. During english lesson, i couldn't stand any longer. i stood beside the door and took the toilet paper (from the shelves which is meant for 4e3 peeps to clean their thermometer) and i sneezed and my throat was so unbearably painful and i gave out a load groan ,mdm norliza looked at me and looked at ying ying and the class was so shocked that they laughed at me! and daryl said i went crazy.

anyway, ive gotten back my EL class test. ALAMAK. same marks as kenneth! he COPIED me.
wahahaa. zzz i was bargaining with mdm norliza for half mark. and she wanted me to check the dictionary so that she can give it to me. but too bad, joey's so lazy that she said : okay lor, nevermind, half mark only! hahaha. i think im so bad. LOL

A cow said i dyed my hair LOL

4:22 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

yes, im living in a harsh world. i am really trying very hard to ensure nobody's getting any hurt from this situation, however, i failed. i've been thinking very hard that what can i do to make everyone happy instead of being sad. i failed once more.
i think i lost you, did i? i once remembered i have a great friend. always beside me to share my joy and sorrows, are you still with me?
please, come back. i don't wish to lose you.

6:59 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Sunday, March 05, 2006

i don't care if the whole world doesn't believe or understands me, all i want is to hear from you.

But i guess, things aren't like that anymore. you are regretting, yes, you are. But you have the right to do that. It wasn't you to be blamed. The problem lies with me, ive got my own reasons which i don't feel like explaining. Whatever decisions that you have came up with. respect is what i can do.

ive no idea how to confess everything in detail. so sorry. i owe you too much.
myLIFE is in a GREATmess.

give up on me, NEVER. give me time to sort it out.
don't ever let our love drift away. cuz` i know it won't.
have faith in me. please. just once more.

if it doesn't work. you can let go, it wouldn't be too late. BUT it's not going to happen.

2:28 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

i think ive PMS! lol

happy birthday my beloved randal. haha. today, we went out with kenneth, randal and clement tgt with yanling. we planned to play pool. however, yiting don't have ezlink card. so she left with szeli. and left the 8 of us.

we've got three tables and we started playing. FIRST TIME i beat fiona! and the rematch with randal, ive sacrifice myself to cling onto the table which fiona said it was a nice pose. and i won randal! hahaha. damn proud of myself. but i lost to kenneth that pro la. by chance~ haha!!! no lar. indeed he is pro. XD

then, we planned to eat the minced meat noodles at the dono what place. but we gave up that thought and went for the sumo. the cucumber so nice, sour sour de. LOL

then, we went back agn. and saw the dennis and gang. so crowded. and so and so. we end off by saying gd byes to my girlies and off i go with the three guys. we went to the dono what park, sit there and star gazing. HAHA. the wind there made me wana fell asleep.

they sent me off at my lift and when the doors of the lift was closing they pressed the button and it open agn. this repeat for THREE times. grrr. hahaha. anyway fun time. x)

i wana change my sex, i wana be a man! cus im the manest. LOL

9:06 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Friday, March 03, 2006

i hope peeps can see this better. especially the kuku NUT brain. haha

yesterday, i reached home so early that i found myself doing nothing at home. so i ransacked the whole house in search of my beloved hp. hahaha. in less than 5 minutes, i got my phone back into my palms. great moms have great daughters. LOL luckily she's not as stupid to bring her phone to work like last time. then, messages came one by one.

people said that i looked dainty on the outside. but stupid crazy on the inside.

i loved this phrase. im crazy. xD

sstupid clayton. RETURN ME MY MIC WATCH! GRRRR

8:13 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Thursday, March 02, 2006

ive a big big pimple above my mouth` and its so painful. and its ugly too.
today. we had our class photos. For the first time in siglap after taking 3 times of class photo i get to sit on the BENCH! and im so HAPPY! cause i wanted too. but due to my height and stuffs, i was always at the second row. and i find it so ironic. so people who wasn't that tall all wanted to stand behind, and all the tall peeps wanted to sit on the bench. -.- and i was having clement's ex-co badge with me all the time. xD

After school, we had poa test. first time i was so damn serious about doing the test, in the end i think i got it all wrong. wahahha. nvm. doesn't matter much to me anyway. then, we went to watch the bb peeps with their match with the ex-siglapians. lol

after that, yiting and i rushed for tution and claiming that we had chinese project so we came late. wtf. so fake can. lol! then probabilities again. and VECTORS! its driving me super nuts. and my stomach kept growling` grrr.

thats my day*

assurance? maybe.

6:24 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

the wind outside blowing, so strong that it tore my heart away.
im feeling the stroke of pain, brushed past me.
and i realised, its not me anymore.

5:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.

i feel like crying, shouting or scream out everything that is going inside me.
people just know how to point fingers and judge them without any good reason, did they ever spare a thought for the rest? how would they feel?

i know i have a damn fucking weird stupid character. im trying to change. don't press me any further. i can't take it anymore. i hate the kind of life that i leading right NOW. perhaps in the first place im not in the picture. i just merely squeezed myself in. thats all. whatever, im just like a prisoner, waiting for the judge to sentence me. im really tired. whatever decisions that you'r gona make or how u want to judge me, go ahead. i cant do much now. ive loads of problems waiting for me to deal. im already having a heavy load of stress. i beg you. dont add on.

i don't want to be anybody's clown anymore. im gona be the real me. ii don't want to smile for anyone anymore. thats no longer a way to ease my sorrows.

in a state of Devastation
The heart had stopped beating

perhaps this is all lies to you

cry me a river.
Flood my emotions.

4:53 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.