together on a telephone line but living at the world's opposite ends.

Friday, July 07, 2006

There's a lost soul that possessed onto me and i feel like a wet spot in the midst of the fire ; feeling very lost.
I couldn't really handle my emotions perfectly like what i used to do.
It feels like clowns who had their faces drawn, smiling endlessly but none ever spot the tears below their eyes which is exceptionally ironic.
And it applys to me, some people just say whatever they want without thinking of the consequences that they have to bear.They never spare a thought of how will you actually feel. heartbroken? hurt? or feel like as thou you are walking through a forest of thorns that made you bleed so profusely. they never did.
i listened to them, feeling very squeezed up on the inside, having an urge to walk away immediately. but i can't, i still have to stand there, listening even though it is particulary uneasy absorbing the content of the conversation and smile unwillingly , un-naturally.
Someone told me that i hung a face with very little expressions this few days which i think it is true. Its always her who understand how i feel. thank you very much (:
Perhaps its very normal for one to be down at times, but its really tormenting to depress.
i never quite tell people about how i feel recently. Only trustworthy ones. Whats the use of elaborating so much when they aint the one experiencing it?
So random.
im having to much on the inside, its exploding very soon, and now i learnt to let it all out.

Thats the way.

7:33 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.