Wednesday, October 25, 2006
terrible day,
i swore that i've never seen my mum so weak before. This morning my sis and i brought her to our family doctor and on the way there, she can't even walk properly. i teared beside her. Its so heart-breaking. After the doctor gave her an injection to stop her giddy-ness, we were told that if after two hours, my mum's condition doesn't improve, we have to admit her to the hospital and we really did.
Now, she's lying there, so weak. Those doctors kept taking blood tests. I felt so useless. I can't control my emotions at all, Worse of all, she had to spend her birthday in the hospital and on the hospital bed.
Looking at her, i can't bear to leave her alone there, but still, she insisted.
Where'd you go when i need you?
7:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i swore that i've never seen my mum so weak before. This morning my sis and i brought her to our family doctor and on the way there, she can't even walk properly. i teared beside her. Its so heart-breaking. After the doctor gave her an injection to stop her giddy-ness, we were told that if after two hours, my mum's condition doesn't improve, we have to admit her to the hospital and we really did.
Now, she's lying there, so weak. Those doctors kept taking blood tests. I felt so useless. I can't control my emotions at all, Worse of all, she had to spend her birthday in the hospital and on the hospital bed.
Looking at her, i can't bear to leave her alone there, but still, she insisted.
Where'd you go when i need you?
7:38 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Monday, October 23, 2006
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feelLike I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
Once upon a song
Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Cause I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
9:03 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i can make tonnes of mistakes,
but i'll never make a mistake about you.
holding on..
6:56 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
but i'll never make a mistake about you.
holding on..
6:56 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
drinking iced coffee at some cafe and i looked abit . . .
indulging
i ruined the yiting's tower
random
our dear szeli took this
YAY! the six (:
squeezed into the small cute little bus
we had loadsa fun
Totally..RANDOM11:11 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Went out this afternoon with fiona to vivo city at the habour front. Its freaking crowded. But at least i got to see what i want to wear for my graduation night. forever 21 is love ! HAHA. Went around the big malls to get yiting's birthday gifts and we got it! i was standing infront of the glass panel of guess looking at some watches and talking to the air, cause fiona was walking away which i didn't know.
After which we meet our darlings for dinner at marina south and i saw my cousin. We didn't said hi cause we barely recognize each other as we meet annually...
Hopped into the arcade and played the car racing game. i'm the first. XD
So tired, once again, i'm like 1/2 broke.
can i just say : hey, to be frank, i really hate you bitch. zzz
so obvious I CAN'T.
they say i'm crazy, i really am.
when will we ever meet again? after 2500 years? i doubt so..
cus' we are stepping out of each other's life.
so far...
10:14 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
After which we meet our darlings for dinner at marina south and i saw my cousin. We didn't said hi cause we barely recognize each other as we meet annually...
Hopped into the arcade and played the car racing game. i'm the first. XD
So tired, once again, i'm like 1/2 broke.
can i just say : hey, to be frank, i really hate you bitch. zzz
so obvious I CAN'T.
they say i'm crazy, i really am.
when will we ever meet again? after 2500 years? i doubt so..
cus' we are stepping out of each other's life.
so far...
10:14 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
My alarm clock is so dead and the bloody ringtone of mine rang and vibrated so many times yesterday night. i'm so disturbed.
I've been losing my sleep each night. When i try to study, i feel so drained and the moment i lie on the bed, my eyes are sparkling, so awake. damn it.
Woke up in the morning, not wanting to be late cause we'll be having our o'level science practical, however, IM STILL, LATE. After waiting at the bus stop for around 10 minutes, i recalled that i needed to top-up my mrt card and i didnt bring any cash. how dumb. ( incase you don't know, mrt and bus fares are so costly) so i called my sis and got a scream from her before she brought me money. And off to school with tingfang. Science Practical was hmm. not bad. i only know that all those bottles of acids or whatever are just leaking. And traces of those acids stains can be easily found on my white white answer scripts. It's worthwhile! i got it right! (: copper (II) chloride) And i happen to know those invigilators. One of them is the Chinese teacher who got very pissed by me and my classmates last time ( i simply don't understand why she's there) Another one is my Sister's Ex-teacher.
Went to tution, i was wearing a white tank top with a white pants and guess what? some tution guy who always sit beside me wore the same thing, a white tee and a white pants. COPY CAT! L-O-L
its purely coincidence.
When i said seriously that i wana learn and own a motor-bike when i'm older, my great mummy screamed like shite. hahaha, its so cool isn't it? we live to make changes.
i guess i have to live with my hello-kitty x-box game every night before sleep. how boring!
i don't feel like thinking, don't look at me.
GoodNight readers. (:
8:36 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
I've been losing my sleep each night. When i try to study, i feel so drained and the moment i lie on the bed, my eyes are sparkling, so awake. damn it.
Woke up in the morning, not wanting to be late cause we'll be having our o'level science practical, however, IM STILL, LATE. After waiting at the bus stop for around 10 minutes, i recalled that i needed to top-up my mrt card and i didnt bring any cash. how dumb. ( incase you don't know, mrt and bus fares are so costly) so i called my sis and got a scream from her before she brought me money. And off to school with tingfang. Science Practical was hmm. not bad. i only know that all those bottles of acids or whatever are just leaking. And traces of those acids stains can be easily found on my white white answer scripts. It's worthwhile! i got it right! (: copper (II) chloride) And i happen to know those invigilators. One of them is the Chinese teacher who got very pissed by me and my classmates last time ( i simply don't understand why she's there) Another one is my Sister's Ex-teacher.
Went to tution, i was wearing a white tank top with a white pants and guess what? some tution guy who always sit beside me wore the same thing, a white tee and a white pants. COPY CAT! L-O-L
its purely coincidence.
When i said seriously that i wana learn and own a motor-bike when i'm older, my great mummy screamed like shite. hahaha, its so cool isn't it? we live to make changes.
i guess i have to live with my hello-kitty x-box game every night before sleep. how boring!
i don't feel like thinking, don't look at me.
GoodNight readers. (:
8:36 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
i've done the craziest thing in my life with serene tonight; which is the stupid shake butt dance. its video-ed down by fiona, wahahaha, hilarious. anyway its so fun with them! ( i mean jie xing serene pei zhi and all ) look at those funny pictures. hahahaha. i forgot what i wana blog.. -.-I LOVE THEM ALL!
9:55 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Monday, October 16, 2006
Redundant Afterall.
I WANA TEAR OPEN YOUR EARS AND START SHOUTING ,SCREAMING OUT LOUD.
I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY. But i didn't know where to start.
I'm trying very hard to adjust and adapt.
I'm still, pretending.
you got loads to say, but not straight to me.
i hate being questioned.
Sometimes i ponder, if i were to leave that situation alone, perhaps, things were totally different today.
BURNING THEORIES is what i do , Books are my Soulmate ; Maths is my love.
9:39 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
I WANA TEAR OPEN YOUR EARS AND START SHOUTING ,SCREAMING OUT LOUD.
I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY. But i didn't know where to start.
I'm trying very hard to adjust and adapt.
I'm still, pretending.
you got loads to say, but not straight to me.
i hate being questioned.
Sometimes i ponder, if i were to leave that situation alone, perhaps, things were totally different today.
BURNING THEORIES is what i do , Books are my Soulmate ; Maths is my love.
9:39 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, October 14, 2006
Me and ying ying. Playing at Daryl's nice nice living room!
Well, today, i spent my day almost at daryl's place. so fun. I woke up so early just for school to find ms fong for my mathematics, however, half way through, i got a call saying she's not coming anymore. v sad. Therefore i meet up with ying ying, joseph and alvin at elias. And we did our revision there. After those boring theories, we went to daryl's house and play! haha.
i got a Mr. Bean BEAR! YEAH!
6:14 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Friday, October 13, 2006
look at this! how adorable! they flew back from oksaka; japan! just for me ((:
3:42 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
you broke my heart ...
9:18 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
9:18 PM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
burn all theories
walked so slowly home today ;alone, quietly observing the night. i love its slience.
met my ex-neighbour in school as a teacher, very shocked and kind of converse abit with her.
finally today i had a proper dinner!
brain dead again.
9:20 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
walked so slowly home today ;alone, quietly observing the night. i love its slience.
met my ex-neighbour in school as a teacher, very shocked and kind of converse abit with her.
finally today i had a proper dinner!
brain dead again.
9:20 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
THE HAZE HAD GOT SO BAD TILL 126 PSI
i didn't know it got so bad till i stepped out of my house this morning with tingfang and my friends for chemistry. Very bad. The town is even worse! ))))):
no fresh air ; brain dead.
Finally, i got myself a pair of pink pink heels, looks barbie to me, i like! hahaha.
5:47 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i didn't know it got so bad till i stepped out of my house this morning with tingfang and my friends for chemistry. Very bad. The town is even worse! ))))):
no fresh air ; brain dead.
Finally, i got myself a pair of pink pink heels, looks barbie to me, i like! hahaha.
5:47 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Friday, October 06, 2006
This was around 9.30pm? damn hardworking us!
YAY! i love my friends alot (:
10:15 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Monday, October 02, 2006
i loathe accusation; i really hate it !
bear no hatred-
Early in the morning, our "dear" principal gave us a lecture on our grades, and we got to know our L1R4 and R5, heard that those students who got less than 3 credits would had to have their parents called. According to what i saw, more than 30 to be called in my class. ( This showed how bad it was.) I think it was almost the same in e4 and e5.
Stayed back in school for like almost 4 hours? drill maths. how cool. i think i'm gona do it everyday! (:
Sometimes, i start to wonder why there's such a great manipulation of attitude towards somethings when dealing with different people, it merely just drifted across my eyes and i got to know how this drastic is the impact upon such manipulation.Pathetic is what i feel.
Don't ask me why, what had happened? why isit like this? i just stopped myself from being entangled into such weird, ridiculous situations which i dread to handle or to get involve in. To me,It hurts and things would get worsen.
If we do know how to handle such stuffs, things would not go this way right now, leaving people alone, some happily ever after, some not knowing what to do, some just dread to know what's happening and the others? happily watching and enjoying great shows put up by us.
whatever it takes, hope for the best of the best. i don't want to see it turning to such a misery (:
My great pals; would always be (:
5:46 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
bear no hatred-
Early in the morning, our "dear" principal gave us a lecture on our grades, and we got to know our L1R4 and R5, heard that those students who got less than 3 credits would had to have their parents called. According to what i saw, more than 30 to be called in my class. ( This showed how bad it was.) I think it was almost the same in e4 and e5.
Stayed back in school for like almost 4 hours? drill maths. how cool. i think i'm gona do it everyday! (:
Sometimes, i start to wonder why there's such a great manipulation of attitude towards somethings when dealing with different people, it merely just drifted across my eyes and i got to know how this drastic is the impact upon such manipulation.Pathetic is what i feel.
Don't ask me why, what had happened? why isit like this? i just stopped myself from being entangled into such weird, ridiculous situations which i dread to handle or to get involve in. To me,It hurts and things would get worsen.
If we do know how to handle such stuffs, things would not go this way right now, leaving people alone, some happily ever after, some not knowing what to do, some just dread to know what's happening and the others? happily watching and enjoying great shows put up by us.
whatever it takes, hope for the best of the best. i don't want to see it turning to such a misery (:
My great pals; would always be (:
5:46 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
do you ever believe in fortune telling?
i never did in the past, but i finally recognize it till this afternoon when my tution teacher brings his stack of tarot cards.
With that stack of 78 cards, it told me about my life, my studies and relationships.
He said that deep inside me buried a hatred that has always been following me since young. This hatred would be the obstacle in my life, either towards studies and all. If only i can change myself, lessen this hatred, things would go in my way, just like the wheel of fortune.
Towards relationship, i would have a sweet start at the very young age of my life. However, it was said that i'm a career-minded woman which would only have two path to choose ; marriage or career. And my piece of advise is, take what comes to me; like a boat sailing.
My Father, too, wanted to know more of his 3 daughters. And he picked out 7 cards. two representing each of us. My elder sister was describe as a person who worked her life out to achieve her success and she will meet some guy later in her life which is ideal for her whether isit wealthy, smart? it fits it all. As for me, one of the cards represented a sword ( which tells my character) and the other, is a mountain of wealth ( I LIKE THAT) and it was said that i might not get marry! and i went to joke that perhaps next time i got divorce and my husband have to compensate me, thats why i have a mountain of wealth. My youngest sister got her card same as my mom, which represented that she would meet a guy, just like my father.
This is just so AMAZING, HE GOT IT ALMOST ALL RIGHT!
There goes my sunday....(((:
2:51 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
i never did in the past, but i finally recognize it till this afternoon when my tution teacher brings his stack of tarot cards.
With that stack of 78 cards, it told me about my life, my studies and relationships.
He said that deep inside me buried a hatred that has always been following me since young. This hatred would be the obstacle in my life, either towards studies and all. If only i can change myself, lessen this hatred, things would go in my way, just like the wheel of fortune.
Towards relationship, i would have a sweet start at the very young age of my life. However, it was said that i'm a career-minded woman which would only have two path to choose ; marriage or career. And my piece of advise is, take what comes to me; like a boat sailing.
My Father, too, wanted to know more of his 3 daughters. And he picked out 7 cards. two representing each of us. My elder sister was describe as a person who worked her life out to achieve her success and she will meet some guy later in her life which is ideal for her whether isit wealthy, smart? it fits it all. As for me, one of the cards represented a sword ( which tells my character) and the other, is a mountain of wealth ( I LIKE THAT) and it was said that i might not get marry! and i went to joke that perhaps next time i got divorce and my husband have to compensate me, thats why i have a mountain of wealth. My youngest sister got her card same as my mom, which represented that she would meet a guy, just like my father.
This is just so AMAZING, HE GOT IT ALMOST ALL RIGHT!
There goes my sunday....(((:
2:51 AM
i stayed up nightsuntil the stars leave the skies.
